FridaPie713 Member Profile

...See more Hello, I am currently not in crisis, but I am coming down from a bad anxiety attack I assume… I feel these days it’s hard to differentiate between that and panic attacks. I am in therapy. I am on lots of meds. I know I have cptsd… may have other issues… I don’t know, I feel very… Like I have never belonged. Lately the word “Neurodivergent” rings a big alarm for me. But who knows, I am from the millennial era. I have always had little to no family support… I grew up being abused by both my narc mother, and alcoholic father… Recently, I left an abusive relationship in March after two years. He was also a narc, an alcoholic, and had a TBI from a traumatic accident where he was left for dead three months into my relationship. It resulted in me losing everything and ending up homeless… Most recently, I got back on my feet with little to no I support… I have my own apartment again, had my own car again after my ex totaled mine… Fast forward to July 22. I was in another motor vehicle accident myself… I hit a pedestrian, and she died… My family was contacted. Preparations had been made in case something happened to me, and if my dog needed care… other than that, everyone, close friends, acquaintances, my family are unavailable for support… I don’t know where to start. I feel like I am in functional freeze. I need a car. I need financial help. I need mental support from a non existent family… my therapist texted this morning super sick. So I am just trying to find support in other ways to help me thru this… I used to do art. I used to write. I used to love it. Being in panic right now I couldn’t even feed myself till earlier when I forced myself to order food, then feel bad about it… My dishes are dirty… I could really use a grippy socks vacation, but my job, my life, my dog… I can’t… I just need something. Support, words, space… something to break this feeling… They changed my meds recently to fluvoxamine… it had helped the intrusive thoughts and suicidal ideation a lot. But my anxiety seems like it’s so bad this last week after going to the higher dose of a full tab… Can someone please help me find something to break this monotony, to gift myself peace… cheaply… easily… with little to no guilt. Something to look forward to. Something to fill this void… Just for a little bit…

Bio

Recent forum posts

Talk to an expert therapist

Hello! My name is Melissa and I am a licensed psychologist, providing mental...

About Us

Get Started

Online Therapy

Terms

Bio