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Gabriel04
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PathStep 13 Compassion hearts164 Forum posts4 Forum upvotes13 Current upvotes13 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2024 Member sinceAugust 6, 2023
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Extreme loneliness
Depression Support / by Gabriel04
Last post
 September 21st, 2023
...See more Hello. I’m a 19 year old male. I’ve been struggling for a long time now. I let myself slip and am now suspended for a semester from college. I turned to my parents and talk to them about the things I’m going through but they didn’t believe me. They thought I was making everything up as an excuse for my poor grades. They’re extremely disappointed in me and it’s really difficult opening up to them anymore. It feels like they’ve always loved my siblings more than me. I’ve never really had many friends. My english is really good, but having moved into the US 7 years ago, it was very difficult to adjust to the new environment. I’ve met people, but I feel like I’ve never made strong connections with them. I’d always be the only one texting first, or setting up things to do. It was obvious I was the only one putting in effort into these friendships. Through high school, I made this really good friend. We were the two single guys in the big friend group. Whenever people were hanging out with their girlfriends, we always had each other to have fun with. We’d do everything together and it was obvious that we were best friends. I knew I didn’t have many friends, but I never felt lonely because I had him. One year into college he got a girlfriend (which I kind of set them two up). I’m happy for him because we’d always joke around how we’d be single forever, but now he now barely has any time for me. He now spends all the time we used to spend with his girlfriend instead. And I feel like I’ve been annoying to him because he feels the need to lie to me saying he’s busy just to spend time with her. I don’t know what else to do except to just leave him alone now. I’m trying to stay strong, so I don’t fall back to rock bottom, but it’s really hard. Every time I start getting better something else is always there to push me back down.
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I don’t know what to do
Depression Support / by Gabriel04
Last post
 August 25th, 2023
...See more I don’t know how I should process my emotions anymore. I’ve never had someone I could openly share my emotions, or how I’m feeling with. My siblings have always taken all of the attention growing up, with each of them having their own special needs. My sister has arthritis and my brother is deaf. I’m so tired of having to be the one helping everyone out, why can’t I get someone to help me? My life right now has been the worst. I can’t talk to my parents because they’re always either busy, or in a bad mood. I only have one friend, who is so busy with work we haven’t seen each other in months. The only girl I’ve ever truly feel in love for is ghosting me. My grades got so low to the point where I’ve been suspended for a semester. I don’t even enjoy doing the things I once did. The only person I was comfortable talking to was my college therapist, but ever since I got suspended, I’ve been stuck with my family’s therapist and I hate it. She doesn’t get me at all, and I don’t know what to do. Worst of all is, I just don’t feel nothing anymore. No sadness, no happiness, no anger. It’s as if I just don’t care about anything anymore, if something bad happens, I don’t care, if we’re going on vacation, I’d just rather stay home. All I ever do nowadays is talk to people online about how I feel so I can get someone to know what I’m going through. I know it won’t make things better, but having someone say they care about me is all I ever want nowadays. I’m tired of just existing, I want to live my life someday, but I don’t know how to start
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Loneliness
Friendship Support / by Gabriel04
Last post
 August 13th, 2023
...See more I’m 19. Moved to the US 7 years ago. I’ve struggled to make friends ever since. Every “friend” I’ve made in the past 7 years doesn’t seem to enjoy my company. I’m terrified of the thought of bring alone for the rest of my life. Everything I want is for someone to say they care about me, not because they have to, but because they want to.
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