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GentlePlum20
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Struggling with reality
Self-Esteem / by GentlePlum20
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 September 5th, 2025
...See more I'm not sure where it the best place to post this but I am really struggling lately. I feel like I'm in an episode of twilight zone, or that everyone around me is gaslighting me or something insane. My reality isn't the reality everyone else is perceiving and I know that should be common sense but what I mean is I KNOW I said or did something very specifically and with intention, and then others around me say that what I remember doing or saying is not correct, even if it just happened. It's making me feel very depressed and isolated, it makes me feel stupid or incapable of understanding the world as it actually is. It is causing me to have a lot of self-worth issues again and I really don't know what to do to make the situation better. It's not like I can record or journal every single waking moment of my life, that's not realistic. I just don't know what to do to feel normal, to feel like I can trust my reality, or myself, or the people around me. Instead of feeling like I am living in some weird upside down universe where things make sense to me and nobody else...
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Looking for people to talk to, and seeking advice
Relationship Stress / by GentlePlum20
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 August 30th, 2023
...See more Hi everyone, I'm struggling with a few things and looking for encouragement and advice on how to grow. I consider myself socially awkward and struggle with social queues. I can get excited easily when talking about something, and fixate to such a degree that I'm stuck in a loop. I repeat the same information, just different ways. I don't notice it until the people I'm chatting with point it out or act a certain way, or get upset that I don't know when to stop talking. Then I become embarrassed to the point I want to dismiss myself from socializing all together. I also struggle with stress, I find it challenging to overcome even small stressors and usually end up blowing things out of proportion and struggling to get myself grounded again. I've tried meditation but I can't seem to quiet my mind enough for that and instead find myself fixating on my stress which is counter productive. As some with a mood disorder it took me a long time to find medication that helped me, so I used cannabis as my way to get rid of stress but now I feel like I try to use that too often as a coping mechanism and at times where it's not always appropriate to be under the influence. I'd like to find a different avenue that works for me. These struggles have even started to impact my relationship, and I worry I could cause the end of an almost 7 year relationship because he's almost at a breaking point and I can't figure out how to overcome my issues. Thanks for listening.
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