Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
Gonzitoooo
1 613 M Embraced 5
PathStep 11 Compassion hearts27 Forum posts1 Forum upvotes3 Current upvotes3 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2026 Member sinceJuly 28, 2019
Bio

22

Recent forum posts
Gonzitoooo profile picture
Lost my other half
Grief & Loss / by Gonzitoooo
Last post
 May 29th, 2024
...See more About 6 years ago I met one of the most impactful people that I’d ever had the pleasure of meeting. I guess you could say he was the full package and I’d never had such a connection to someone before. Long story short, some things happened and a couple months ago we went no contact for good. We’ve tried to leave each other alone over the years but it’s never any good, we always ended up right back to square one. I think it’s especially hard for me because I’ve never actually accepted that it was done. I haven’t been able to move on because it almost feels wrong. I’ve built this image of him in my head that I’m so scared of tainting. I was so fond of him for so long and many things came to light that started to ruin this for me because I would hate to hate him. No one understood me the way he did and I’m so stuck because I know it’s not reciprocated. I thought our bond was one of a kind and exclusive to one another but it turned out to be a lie and I’ve been in denial. There hasn’t been a single day that I haven’t been sad about this and it’s consuming me so much. I cannot even do the simplest of tasks anymore , I’m not sure what’s different about this time around but it almost feels like acceptance. I don’t want to accept anything because then it would make it real. I’m grieving someone alive and well and the fact I can’t have him around physically aches me. I’m scared that if I accept it’s over and done with, I’ll hate the world . I’m so scared I’ll become bitter and angry , it feels like the day he left me alone, a piece of me died . I can’t function anymore and it doesn’t help that I look for him in everything that I do. I’ve never had a problem moving forwards with my life before, I truly thought he was my soulmate I’m so drawn to him even when I don’t try. I feel suffocated by this feeling of loss , I’ve never felt like this before
Search more from @Gonzitoooo
Considering Therapy?
Talk to an expert therapist
Badges & Awards
14 total badges
Hand Shake Linked Quintet Chief Chat Honest Voice Reconnect First Post Reaching out First Compassion Bundled Evolution Teammate Strong Bond I Hang 10
Report an issue