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HealingWithin111
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Thousands and Thousands of Resume/CV
Work & Career / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 July 20th
...See more I have literally submitted 40 resume/CV this week alone. I have probably submitted thousands and thousands over the last almost year. I can't even get a cashier job at sprouts. Like I have no idea wtf to do at this point. I've launched several new business ideas, and none of them have taken off either. I have 2 decades of experience being an entrepreneur and I just don't understand how I am meeting a brick wall at literally every turn. I'm tired, exhausted and cry basically daily. The end.
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Another Sleepless Night
Depression Support / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 July 16th
...See more I will eventually sleep, but for once I really need it tonight and it is so elusive. I have an interview in the AM. My alarm is set for 6am. I really need a job. This one sounds good, but after trying and trying and trying. I just don't get excited anymore. Totally unattached one way or the other. I just know at some point something needs to pan out. Maybe that's where you have to live, unattached and a little more leaned into stoicism? Maybe that's not even the right word. Honestly, I imagine I'll just get a few hours. If that. My stomach is in pain, I really gotta stop eating out. The oils places use are just awful on me. Damn tacos being delicious. So the pain isn't helping me get to sleep. Just my whole body tbh. 3vinch foam isn't the best, I should've gotten 2 inch. Well this post has become random AF.
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It's been a while, I'm back . . .
Depression Support / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 July 10th
...See more Well. Note to self, I shouldn't ever stop posting in here, even when I think things are all good. Everything has fallen apart again. I've spent the last few days in bed, crying. Prettyuch nonstop. I'm so exhausted yet, I can't sleep. In short, I'm depressed, anxious, can't get any help from the state. I feel at such a loss. I have no income, just when it all came together, it fell apart. Blah blah blah God makes space blah blah blah. That was 3 months ago. I'm hungry, I can't pay my bills and it's putting way too much pressure ony BF to take care of me. I feel utterly worthless, useless, and like a complete failure. I've tried starting my own businesses again, but because of everything I feel like I have zero capacity to do it. Like I can't even get out of bed most days. And this week was exceptionally hard. I've never hit so many brick walls just to get a *** ID so I can start getting some type of *** help. I was told just make a loaf of churches and call them and ask if they can help with food and rent. Like really?? Didn't all my tax dollars I've spent inu lifetime mean I was supposed to get help from the *** government and state? But nah. I don't qualify with no income and no savings. I'm so lost. I'm so tired. But I can't sleep until I just pass out from sheer exhaustion.
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So much less stress
Work & Career / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 March 26th
...See more Grateful for when things move in the right direction. I'm getting more and more ready every day.
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Launched a biz today in 2 hours.
Work & Career / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 March 24th
...See more Inspired Action: Taking acting as soon as the a universe gives you the light. Launched a whole new business today in just a couple hours. Let's see how long until I get my first sale. Prices are $45.
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The "I Chose Not to Self Sabotage" Thread
Motivation & Accountability / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 April 7th
...See more I'm starting a thread where we celebrate every single time we chose to love and support ourselves instead of whatever Self Sabotage means for you. A lot of us keep score on ourselves but it's rarely for the wins. Let's focus there for a while and see what the results manifest? You can share as much or as little. I'll start by sharing mine below.
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Just Keep Swimming
Motivation & Accountability / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 March 18th
...See more Just keep going. Right now I'm in that weird part of my glow up journey where I'm still habitually doing things I don't truly want to, but I believe it's just like playing itself out. Next week I transition into more hours at work, less idle time, more stimulation, less idle hands lol. I am ready. The next 3 months are my training grounds. How badly do I want to keep this lifestyle? How much creativity can I rediscover within? It's time to battle up some demons, cause we all have them. Some days are better than others, that's for sure, I believe that's also natural. Whatever you're doing to help, heal, or improve your life. Keep going. Keep swimming. No matter what.
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🎉 When Others Begin to Notice
Motivation & Accountability / by HealingWithin111
Last post
 March 16th
...See more My boyfriend told me how proud he was of me, with how much I've improved. It's been a long journey, and truly probably is only just beginning again on another level. I tend to be extremely hard on myself, a lot of self punishment like extra extra. And though yes, I do realize I have come far, I don't see it like someone does on the outside. And I definitely don't see it like others do because of my own issues mentioned above (working on this). But it's nice to hear it from someone else. Especially since he's seen me at what I would consider has been my worst. It does help me acknowledge it, and I won't lie at the same time it also made me want to sabotage it. Also working on this, thanks for everyone whose been supportive on thatvas well. But I wake up and I keep going. I mess up, and then I keep going. I have a great day and I I keep going. If it snows, rains, sunshine, I keep going.
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