Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
HopefulSprings
9 730,042 M Meaningful Journey 13
Yo yo yo
PathStep 1,817 Compassion hearts28,141 Forum posts5,352 Forum upvotes5,427 Current upvotes5,427 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2024 Member sinceJune 28, 2016
Bio

Hello my name is Hopeful. I am a Healthcare worker working in the Mental Health field. I have autism and ADHD. I am studying mental health wellness.


Recent forum posts
Attachment Issues - A Poem
Poetry / by HopefulSprings
Last post
 July 20th, 2022
...See more I wrote this poem after experiencing some heartbreak from this one guy I am currently talking to.. I expect to feel more heartbreak but I can't walk away from him. ‘Didnt wear my seatbelt Fell so hard So fast Wanted to enjoy myself Ended up in a pit of misery. Feels like a crushing rock Holding me down under Air bubbles lessening It’s like I’ve lost the ability to breathe To see the light The rug got pulled from under me. I’m falling And there’s no where to grab. Got too close to something real How silly of me to think it was for me. How silly of me to let myself believe That I deserve security and closeness. Wanted so badly to be connected I doomed it from the start. I knew I’d mess up So I sabotaged myself. So now I’m drowning in my tears Wishing I could breathe. How silly of me to think Green flags were for me. ----------- Have me twisted Heart pangs Blood down my wrists. Pain clouding Breathing labored Feelings crushed Doubts intensified. Questions in the air. Did I mean anything? Or was I just another body To add to your count? Felt so safe Now i feel tossed Like yesterday’s garbage. You say you’re not leaving But you don’t show yourself. All I have is heartbreak And I did this to myself. I got close to you Let myself be hurt. Opened myself to pain. I don’t know how to exist How to pretend you never happened. Misery in my soul All I know is sadness. How lame of me To think I’m allowed happiness. It was fun While it lasted. I let myself be fooled Thinking someone could love All of me. Should have known Mother knows best. No one can love A broken stitch like me.
Dealing with my first patient loss and struggling to cope
General Support / by HopefulSprings
Last post
 June 20th, 2022
...See more Hi everyone. Most of you know me as Hopeful. I work for my local hospital as a Behavioral Tech. And I am dealing with a loss that I didn't expect because I don't work on a floor where death is common. A patient, who I will refer to as Love to protect her confidentiality, died unexpectedly an hour before my shift began on Wednesday. Love was giving me hugs and blowing me kisses the day before and holding my hands and communicating with us all. She was acting how Love normally acts. There were no signs that this was going to be the last time I saw Love alive. I came into work yesterday, and I was completely unaware of Love's situation. I overheard nurses talking about Love but it didn't really click that Love was dead until I heard Love's family screaming and crying while I was in the dayroom with my assigned patient. It came as a shock to me because I didn't realize that Love had died in her sleep. Love had been in and out of our care for a span of over a decade. Love has touched many of our hearts and we have grown attached to Love. I know for one I always thought I would see Love around the hospital because she became a normal fixture within our units. Whenever Love saw me, she would be so happy and she remembered me everytime. There were moments where Love irritated me with how loud she could be during the full twelve hours with her and I would get migraines but I always presented her with patience and love because I know she struggled her whole life with her mental illnesses that impacted her mental health. I told her many times that I love her and Love let me know she loves me too. She was such a loving woman and I am going to miss her. I am sad that she is dead but at the same time, I hope she is now at peace after struggling for over a decade to get her mental illnesses under control. I don't have much beliefs but I want to hold onto the faith that there are spirits and a place where we go after struggling for so long on Earth. Love, if there is such a thing, I think you have more than earned yourself a spot up there. I am glad that you are no longer suffering with the voices or any of the other symptoms that came from the illnesses that you had. I am sorry Love that your family didn't spend enough time with you or call you for special occasions but I think it was amazing how much you loved them and told me about your daughters when you were lucid. I love you, Love. I miss you. I am not happy you're gone but I am okay with you being at peace. It hurts.
Help me find some scholarly sources plz
Student Support / by HopefulSprings
Last post
 March 19th, 2019
...See more I need six extra sources on top of my textbook. I am writing a paper on Counselor Ethics and Responsibilities Assignment Guidelines. It has to cover client rights, responsibility to warn and protect, Client-record keeping,self care, advocacy, and counselor values.
Search more from @HopefulSprings
Talk to an expert therapist
I enjoy working with clients of all ages, and I have worked with clients with a...
Badges & Awards
91 total badges
Hand Shake Linked Quintet Super Active Bubbly Chief Chat Honest Voice Confident Voice Power Voice Strong Start Milestone Journeying Strong Reconnect Walking Together Strong Bond Lifting Up First Post Debuted Reaching out Helping out Appreciated Voice Contributor Community Collaborator First Compassion Helpful heart Kindness personified Loving Soul Bundled Group Chimer Group Chatter Group Supporter Group Carer Group Healer iGrow Grow on the Go Member Oath Group Support Oath Marathon ADHD Anxiety Depression Chronic Pain Family Stress Sleeping Well College Guide Test Anxiety Exercise Motivation Compassion Hero Forum Companion Forum Helper Forum Buddy Forum Guide Forum Light Supportive Smile Friendly Face Helping Hand Wise One 7Cups Guide 12 Steps Hangout Key TS Key Cup Connect Strike-a-Streak Hello Again 7 Day Streak 260 Day Streak 3rd Birthday Star 3rd Birthday Milestone 3rd Bday Hug-a-Friend Strangers Unite Entrepreneur Self-Esteem Master Self-Esteem MedX Pink Ribbon Sponsee Healthy Hearts NAMI Oath Togetherness Meet & Greet Strong Bond II Strong Bond III Strong Bond IV Teammate Group Friend Forum Friend Meaghan's Heart Summer Events Support Key Strong Bond I Sharing Circle I
Report an issue