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Jaxerz
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PathStep 256 Compassion hearts1,191 Forum posts41 Forum upvotes38 Current upvotes38 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2017 Member sinceSeptember 6, 2017
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Trauma Support / by Jaxerz
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 September 15th, 2017
...See more It's been 15 years since the worst thing ever happened to me. And then bad things just kept happening. Since that first time, I always was seeking the worst kind of person out there to basically kill me. I liked getting hurt because it was the only time I was able to actually feel. I starting out cutting and then that just didnt work any more, and also my parents were getting worried about me and i didnt want to worry them. Then I started doing drugs to numb the pain but that only got me in an abusive relationship. I was in that relationship for 5 years and i never wanted to get out because i hated myself that much. I stayed with him after everything he did to me. Now that he is gone, i have to learn to "love myself " again and i dont really know how. i dont think i have since i was 12.
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Depression Support / by Jaxerz
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 October 2nd, 2017
...See more Hi guys, my names Jackie and I am 27. i have been dealing with depression since i was 12 years old, and I have never really overcome it. I always put myself down, even though i know that i am better than that. For some reason i love to get into abusive relationships because i hope that they will kill me and I dont have to do it myself. Right now im not with anyone so im back to snapping a rubber band on my wrist and its actually getting annoying. Im using all these different coping skills ive learned in my years and non of them are helping! anyone have any new ideas i havent heard already?
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