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JelliiBean
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Just venting I guess
Trauma Support / by JelliiBean
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 December 23rd, 2023
...See more Tw: brief mentions if child abuse My mom was very awful to me when I was growing up, she was an alcoholic and it really affected me. She would hit me and say horrible things to me like telling me I'm worthless and stupid. I moved out once I turned 18 and I was doing just fine on my own. I'm 21 now and a few months ago I got diagnosed with a chronic illness that causes chronic pain and chronic fatigue. I tried hard to keep living on my own, but I can't even hold down a job anymore. I ended up having to move back in with my mother. She doesn't drink as much anymore, and she doesn't hit me or call me names. She's still manipulative and hurtful though. I think the worst part is that she doesn't even remember all of the horrible things she did to me. I have to live with PTSD from her abuse for the rest of my life, while she gets to forget because she was so drunk and high she blacked out most of my childhood. I'm so grateful I get to live here rent free, because if not I'd be homeless, but I feel trapped here like I'll never escape her. I'm just struggling to find a lot of positives in my life right now.
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