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Jess2003
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I'm just trying to be better without losing myself in the process.

Is it even possible to grow as a person and still be yourself?

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F23. Struggling with BPD and my sense of self
Personality Disorders Support / by Jess2003
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 April 15th
...See more I was diagnosed with BPD around 3 years ago and honestly the more I try to get better, the worse I end up being. I'm not able to make the distinction in my brain between changing for myself and changing for the sake of other people. Some experts believe BPD symptoms get worse when being in a relationship, but in my case having someone in my life that genuinely cares about me helps me tone down the impulsive behavior. Unfortunately since then my life has slowed down significantly to the point that I barely do anything outside work and screen time. I don't feel like I'm doing better, just because I've decided to behave better doesn't really mean my mindset has changed as much as my outside shows, if that makes sense. I want to be able to love myself as much as I love my S.O. since that's the only way to truly change for good, but I'm still not very sure of who am I supposed to be, or what else defines me as a person besides the little things I do throughout my repetitive days. I would really appreciate your advice. -J
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