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JustaJunkie
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When will I have wasted enough of my time?
PathStep 49 Compassion hearts52 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes7 Current upvotes7 Age GroupAdult Last activeFebruary, 2026 Member sinceMarch 3, 2025
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There's nothing much. I'm just a junkie. I smoke meth and do meth head things. 

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How am I supposed to like who I am when I'm me?
Self-Esteem / by JustaJunkie
Last post
 December 19th, 2025
...See more When I'm just a meth junkie who can't get it in his right mind to stay off this ***?
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Why do I keep on coming back to meth?
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by JustaJunkie
Last post
 January 27th
...See more I've been trying to quit this *** for the better part of 3, coming up on 4 years. I've learned a lot about what triggers me, I know how to play the tape all the way through, I know box breathing and all it's variations, I know just about everything that should be able to keep me from relapsing. But time and time again I find myself back in the exact same ***. I was clean about 3 months this time around, never had much longer than 8 months consecutively. I've seen this drug take everything from me and leave me with nothing but a Stockholm syndrome with meth at the helm of my obsession. It's not like I don't want to quit... I want nothing more in this life than to be free of this damn drug. I don't want to live in chains my whole life, so why do I always, always, always make the same decision to lock myself right back up into the *** I know will destroy me? My mom found me out the other day. She called me a "*** idiot" and said I "deserve to feel like ***" and I'm thinking she's right. Because no man in their good sense and honest word could be in the situation I'm in and have been for so long. Most of my entire adult life has been taken by this drug, I'm 23 and have been struggling with addiction since 19. Who can I really blame but myself though... Nobody put the pipe to my mouth. Nobody held me down and stuck a needle in my arm. Nobody forced me to sniff a line. I do it all to myself just fine enough and every day too. Childhood trauma can only excuse my severe intellectually lacking self destructive decision making for so long... I wonder who I would have been if I had never decided to take this awful drug. Will this ever end?
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