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Dear June
Depression Support / by Karma115
Last post
 March 24th, 2020
...See more Dear June, God I feel like shit. I have to focus just so I don't throw up. I know its worth it so that I'll be ok for the rest of the day, but god this is awful. I feel so sick. Fortunately it is for just an hour, but that doesn't make me any less nauseous. I'm not exactly sure if the ginger ale is helping or not. Speaking of, it feels weird walking down the halls of school with a can in my hand thats not a monster. It kinda looks like a beer can. On my way to class I wanted someone to ask "Is that beer?" only for me to reply "I fucking wish." I feel like im gonna get sick of ginger ale real quick if I keep having to drink it though. Hopefully my doctor can get me a different medication today. If not I guess I'll have to get used to feeling like shit in the mornings. Yaaaaaaaaaay. Well, I apreciate time June. Its nice to talk to someone who understands. - Karma
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Dear June
Depression Support / by Karma115
Last post
 April 5th, 2020
...See more Dear June, I got the medication! Unfortunately it makes my mornings hell. You know how I really hate eating in the morning? Well, the medication is supposed to be taken in the morning, and with food. Yeah, you already know where this is going. So I eat very little before taking the pill and uh, my body doesnt necissarily like that. For an hour or so, I feel like I'm gonna throw up. And you know how some people bounce their leg up and down when theyre bored? I can't stop doing that. I also shake uncontrollably. Not a lot, but enough to be uncomfortable. But after that hellish hour, I'm ok for the rest of the day. Yep, the medication works, isn't that great? I may ask for a medication without side effects like that, but if I can't get anything else I'll just live with it. After all, its the only way that I'll feel ok. Bit sad, isn't it June? That to not feel a constant discomfort in my chest, to be able to get out of bed, to be able to consume more than 1 smoothie because I have an apetite again, I need medicine. It makes me jealous I guess. Of the people who don't need a substance to be ok, of the people that feel happiness in their lives, of people who don't constantly hide their face behind a mask. I just want to be happy again. Is that too much to ask? Am I asking too much from the world? Am I selfish? I don't know. Well anyway, thanks for reading this June, it means a lot that I have someone to talk to about this stuff. - Karma
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