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Layne107
15,383 M Progress Road 2
PathStep 11 Compassion hearts880 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes4 Current upvotes4 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2019 Member sinceMay 1, 2016
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20yr old. Not sure what the hell my gender is tbh. Visually impaired and use voice over so heads up if I'm a bit slow to reply

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I just want to move on from stuff
Trauma Support / by Layne107
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 September 18th, 2016
...See more *I'll be talking about rape so please be warned if you're sensitive to this* Hi. I'm for lack of a better word stubborn, and discussing issues (or even letting myself be open about them) is such a big challenge for me. So I thought this would be a good step to get things off my chest. I'm transgender (male to female) long story short, I am very happy with the way I am now living my life ~ post coming out. However a lot of the time I feel disgusting. When I was 10, I was raped by a family friend. He made me dress as a girl. He would choke me until I passed out and let calling me "pretty for a boy". 8 years later. I still feel disgusting as a girl. I feel sick. I don't even know if I'm overreacting. So many people have had such worse experiences and I don't even know what to do anymore. Being who I am makes me feel disgusting. It's ruined any possibility I might of had at being intimate with someone. And i just don't know. It's something I want to move on from and I guess posting here might help. I don't know. Sorry I'm repeating myself. Thanks for taking the time to read this whoever was interested enough. I really, really, really appreciate it.
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