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LostIt1809
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PathStep 52 Compassion hearts144 Forum posts12 Forum upvotes14 Current upvotes14 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2026 Member sinceAugust 6, 2015
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Hello (she/her)

I wanted to put here a small thank you to all listeners and members who have helped me and help others, and will continue to do so 🩷


Not much to know about me haha I’m a she/her, I am a writer, an avid reader and I love my dog Beanie 😁

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Cooking triggering
Eating Disorder Support / by LostIt1809
Last post
 17 hours ago
...See more Hi! I want to ask if this is a common occurrence for anybody else. I recently started cooking for the first time in my life. I know it might sound crazy, but I really struggle with feeling contaminated or dirty when touching leftovers or uncooked food, so I have avoided cooking for most of my life. I recently moved in with my partner and I decided I wanted to experiment cooking so the full load of that task would not fall on my partner. The first couple of times I noticed I got really anxious and was way too aware of cleaning everything and washing my hands. I would stop mid steps to clean something But I succeeded with the recipes (I then had trouble convincing myself to eat it, but that’s another topic) I cooked beef for the first time a couple of days ago, I started fully panicking with how the food had been handled, touching leftovers (pieces I cut out or stuff like that), then my partner started serving himself a different type of food close to where my food was and I got so much anxiety about “wrong” foods touching each other. I was nauseous and could not calm myself. Had to totally disconnect I feel like cooking has been triggering parts of my ED I believed were totally in the past, is it the same for anybody? How do you handle it?
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Afraid of regressions
Eating Disorder Support / by LostIt1809
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 May 26th, 2024
...See more I was doing really well with my ED, I had improved a lot and was able to eat outside of my house. (I used to only be able to eat in “safe places” like my house or my aunts house) At the end of last year a colleague at my new job started making jokes about how I eat the same thing every day (I have “safe” foods that I feel comfortable eating around people, specially when I am just getting to know them and it is a new environment). It sent me back spiraling, I basically screamed at her one of the times and stopped interacting with her completely. Since then, I started having a real hard time eating lunch or snacks at the office. I get really anxious and it just kept getting worse. Sadly it is now impossible to eat there. the problem is that I kept spiraling and now I feel anxious eating even in my house. Any advise, anecdote or whatever you can share related to this would be helpful. I am feeling truly lonely through this
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I'm i enough?
Relationship Stress / by LostIt1809
Last post
 December 21st, 2016
...See more I have just started talking to this guy who is truly amazing and so unique and he likes me the way I am and accepts me,but we like very different stuff and I try really hard to understand the shows he likes or whatever he likes really but it's really hard as I get really lost and can't follow on our comversations about that stuff... I feel like I'm boring him, that he thinks he can't talk about what he likes ...
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