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LuCalli
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After so long the urge returned
Self-Harm Recovery / by LuCalli
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 October 27th, 2025
...See more I have been clean for 2-3 years. 3 years now, and honestly starting my 4th year soon. After so long of never ever feeling or hearing the need in the back of my mind, I felt it again after going through a horrible experience again (economical this time).  I felt incredibly hurt to feel it again. In fact I felt nauseous even. I felt I had moved on, but then it came knocking again and it got so strong i didn’t trust myself to even leave my bed. But thankfully this time, I had more will to fight it: I didn’t give in, but the urges returned. It saddened me, I felt humiliated to the point I isolated myself out of sheer shame. Not wanting to put my loved ones through having me going through this again: if I couldn’t resist it for myself, then I did it for my loved ones.  I am getting better now, but finding a community I can be heard fills me with relief. I also started therapy once more, but a community and people to talk to about it when my therapist can’t makes me feel better 
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