Hi, welcome to my bio! This is the place where I'll tell you something more about me.

KEEP IN MIND

this is a part of my history which keeps on evolving and changing, as you fix problems, new ones come, its a part of life, and so, new ones came for me too, i'll keep it updated w the people i reach out to on here or if they reach out to me :>

thank you for your attention!!

Firstly when I'm tipying on my phone, I usually type almost all lowercase letters, mostly cuz I kinda have gotten used to it, but when I'm on my laptop (like now) I type normally, so sorry if it offends anyone!

Secondly, it's time for my story!!! (aghh trauma dumping, GET OVER IT). If you actually think this way, just give it a chance bro. I'm adding this cuz I don't want to be repetitive and speak out what happened over and over again. Alr enough of this bs, let me begin, also TW

[1st - 4th grade]

Honnestly there's not a lot of things to talk abt here, but just that we were all kinda hangin out like all kids, until we leave one guy off, let's call him Nico, and he holds a grudge against me. Later on in the 4th grade I make a friend that was very nice, and he asked me to join our group. I was like: "Ehh it can't be that bad, it's been 2 years, blud probably changed", he didn't change and I was about to find out why

[5th & 6th grade]

This is the period I like to call "the Mental Conflict" at the begining it wasn't like one, but I'd say at the end it definetly was one. Anyway, let me go back to the story which I want to preserve and move forward from. Alr so I accept him into our group and he starts telling my friend that I'm the problem in our friendship and, being 11, bro believes in him. And so he isolates me quicker than you can say "Pie!" Now I went on a trip to Istria where, due to some decision by some wise man from Moscow, many people from both Russia and Ukraine fled. I have met a Russian friend whom I'll call "Ivan" and he would be the only guy who would want to spend time with me for abt a month until we joined a discord abt a roblox roleplaying game. The game's been dead for years, they still do events and stuff, but it has 30k people on discord, and abt 6 consecutive players. It wasn't because of the events you're about to read, it was bc of something else. So, Nico figured out somehow that I wad over there so he started sending discord bots to the server, and mass reporting people. The community has reported him as well, which resulted in him being nuked off discord along with his bots. Now back then the community was abt 300 people and at the end he got to isolate abt 20-40 people, estimets vary because some people might've just left without being isolated, some people might have quit discord and they might've become a better guy, but let's go with 20 because that number makes me feel the least sad abt myself. So in the end some people did return, but some also didn't, they again might be living the life right now, or they could be NOT LIVING THE LIFE RIGHT NOW, Who knows? Some people might've done that, because discord is like 7 cups of tea, but without the support from everyone. A place where there's a lot of sad people and people who just don't really support one another, there are servers for being supportive, yes, but there are also a lot of grooming servers and other bs like that. In the end these people have started supporting me until the very end of the conflict. Next story!!!! So history class (yay!!!!) we've just gotten back our test results, and I got an 8/10, I was happy with it, BUT THEN Nico snatches out the test from my hand, gets a note book and tells the teacher that I've had one incorrect answer that she marked correct. AKA HE LOWERED MY GRADE. Now it's time that I explain why this is soo important. In Croatia (the country where I'm from) to get into high school, they count the avarege sum of ur grades from 5th, 6th, 7th and 8th grade. As well as other important subjects that the high school might deem important. They're grades from em, and they would be only grades from 7th and 8th grade. Now you know, the guy just wanted to get me into a worse school. In the end, I locked in and got all A's and mannaged to have 4.47 at the end. The teacher was kind enough to give me an A. Next thing I'd want to mention is that I also made an important friend of mine, who later on becomes more important. She was just helpin me with exams and I was doing the same to her and we were good with one another. Next is the turning point. I wanted to kick out the manipulation from my friend. So I made a plan on how to do that. I'd simply play with my best friend, then when Nico called, he'd simply stop playing with me and play with Nico cuz we hated each other. I'd simply call him to go outside, and bc we were in 6th grade, moms were in charge of our lifes, his mom would force him to go out. Thus after enough of times of me doing this to him, he simply in 7th grade wasn't manipulated anymore. I showed him what Nico did, at first he didn't believe it, but as time went on, he just believed and that's that. A W, but at what cost?

[7th & most of the 8th grade]

This era was the best one by far, I've had been doing multiple things and had a lot of intrests. No conflict, just healing. HERE WE GOO! So, I was intrested in psychology, coding, math, psisics, electronics, history, chess (that was like when the chess boom was ending lol-2023), and I've gathered many achivements from there. Such as being the 3rd best player in my county until the age of 14 (2023) becoming the strongest in my school and leading them to 2nd best in the county (2024) going to the nationals and individually being the 7th best there (2024) healing from my past, and a lot of other things. Also, I made a lot more cool friends that are quite supportive, but not as much as it is enough, I'd still need a lil more rn. This was probably the best era of my life, but I didn't talk abt the problems. Some of my friends were getting high, drunk and vaping. Ofc why can't they do that? I say that because they might become manipulators and start acting rudely. Now that's something exactly that happens. One friend, let's call him "Henry" has started doing that to Mary, using the exuse "I'm depressed!!!!!" This might seem funny, but the guy literally wouldn't let me talk to her, just cuz he is depressed doesn't mean that he should be able to be doing bad things. It only means you should be given support, not that you should start manipulating the people arround you! So Mary buys into his talk, and now makes a lot of promises just to break em, and just quits my life. It kinda made me a lil sad, cuz she was there when no one else would be there, but still she was also a lil like Henry. Cuz she was deffending him, and telling me that I should stop (I've seen this before). Aka this is the exact same formula, we're all gonna be subject to genocide if she decides it might be time. I do am a little paranoid about it, but logically it won't happen, I feel that it might, so yea. I'm still currently an 8th grader and I'd wanna go to the Electro-techincs school abt computing cuz I'd love to program and generally do my own thing. And yes, I do have strong grades, if anyone's stalking me that much.

What Kind of Listener I'm Looking For:

I work best when there's genuine connection — not robotic replies or super formal tones. (i mean we could, but it never will get close to a connection that's possible with others). If you just want to farm experience points on 7 Cups or act like a therapist with a script, we probably won’t click.

I’m looking for a listener who:

Treats me like a distant friend, not just a random member

Shares small pieces of themselves, so it feels human and not one-sided

Gives real suggestions and insight, not just validation or empty encouragement

Bonus if you’ve gone through your own challenges share them with me (*or atleast a bit of em) — it helps me feel less alone and more understood because i would have an example infront of me of why i'm not alone (yea i sometimes do struggle with that too)

I've become super picky cuz before when i was letting everyone into my life, i was getting backstabbed non stop (just a reminder for the story up there loll) so if we can't click, that's fine too!

UPDATE FROM 3.4.2024 (DD/MM/YYYY):

also this one was written when i was on my phone, so you also know what that experiance is like

sooo, i kinda have started feeling down a lot, i thought at first that it might be teen mood swings, but it simply ain't, the sad one lasted way longer and now i'm on a track of working thru my problems using this app. also the breakup with Mary here wasn't so simple as i stated here, i only don't wanna talk abt it yet only if i have gotten super comfortable with the listener, then i share every bit of detail (even if i say that, i still leave some things behind, sometimes on pourpase, while sometimes accidentally, so take your pick)

UPDATE FROM 17/05/2025 (DD/MM/YYYY)

soo, firstly a lot of things have went down and i even had survived thoughts of doing bad things to her, most of them included stuff to do with her phone, i don't really want to get into much detail before the chat (and if i'm even okay with sharing this info to y'all) so be patient please.

now it didn't really happen (no attack took place), but she did take advantege of mental illneses for her own gain. such as we've had a mutual friend who's autistic and she LITERALLY wanted to control his feelings about me and deastroy my friendship with him, pare this with anxiety of wheather i'll get in or not (74.95 is okayyy???) and some more things that are in my personal life and i don't wish to share with everyone, because boundaries.

also idk how but i got closer to Jesus after everything that went down, i've kept my kool and he was the only reason i didn't esculate it further and why i don't want to do bad things to her, although the temptation still arises i hold myself back and try my best not to freak out and actually do something bad. because bad+bad≠good (yea i love math)

lastly i'd love to mention that i've still got a few friends who don't trust her fully and that hope still remains for a peacefull solution. i've been also trying to get my mind off of this situation so that it can "rest" and be stronger later on

UPDATE FROM 7/07/2025 (DD/MM/YYYY)

I absolutely have no idea what should i do now, forget abt high school stress because i got in YAYYY!!! but because of that thoughts and battles with self control have gotten harder and harder and whenever i reach out to people, they often ignore what kind of support would i need. i added that because i genuenly need to rebuild and process those emotions, while any other type, we just kinda waste time

the support on here has been absolutely terrible btw, some "listeners" have tild me some things a member would never have to hear from a listener, such as "maybe YOU'RE not doing enough work" or "You're spitting in the face of charity" --> those things really hurt, people often underestimate the power of words, do they?

some people have stood up for me, and i'm forever grateful for them

also i'm an introverted 15 year old who ALWAYS tries his best at things, sometimes winning, while sometimes failing, but hey, that's life and we have to accept our defeats, because that's how we learn from them! i'd say i'm very future oriented, i always look forward to the future if the present seems not super pleasent. i just am focused on rebuilding my life now for a 3rd time (firstly i had to build it, then 2nd time rebuild it after Nico, and finally, this time's the charm). even tho being introverted, i'm open to new ideas of how i can counter my problems, so if you'd give me suggestions that'd be very good of you and i really appreciate it. i rlly love to bond with listeners, that's my thing that i do and i rlly like it. if you could offer long term relations, that'd be great of you to do so! but if you can't, we still can have this one chat, even if it's not what i'm looking for. hopefully god will put the right people on all of our paths and we'll finally be set free (yea, i'm religious)

Thanks for making it to the end of my bio! Hope it wasn't that long. All I'm looking forward to is just a bit more support if I can get any. If you can't give me support, it's okay, but then can you just point out someone who can if it isn't an issue? Thanks!