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Merl2010
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Sorry Mum
Grief & Loss / by Merl2010
Last post
 Tuesday
...See more I recently lost my mum due to cancer and I didn't know how bad she was till it was to late as she didn't tell any one how bad she was But thinking back the sings were there and I should have taken more notice Is easy for me to say I didn't know or was it I just didn't want to think about what could be wrong Ever since I was a kid my mum didn't want me to away from home for long and I never moved out and I'm in my 40s now Since she retired I had to scale back my work to the point I hardly had any and found it hard to go out for more than a few hours I used to get do frustrated and argue about that and said rotten things to her as It felt like I couldn't get though We always made up and I never left on a harsh word How she was and other things that didn't make sense and I thought she was just being difficult But now knowing about her health makes total sense and I feel so guilty how I was to her at times If only she had said I'd have dropped everything without question
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I've just watched my mum die
Grief & Loss / by Merl2010
Last post
 September 18th
...See more I have been I though I have been supporting my mum my whole life I am in my 40s and have not left home as she didn't want me to leave but the truth is now that she has gone I realise I was leaning or her just as much as she was me As she got older she wanted be to be away from her less and less and wanted to go with me everywhere and I used to get very annoyed and used to argue and she used to day she's not going to be around much longer I thought she was just saying that even asked her was there really anything wrong and she said she's fine But now after she has passed away I found out that she knew about her cancer and not told anyone till she couldn't hide it any longer and by that time it was to late to do anything to save her and didn't leave any time to make her remaining time special knowing this now makes more sense and I feel so guilty as if I had know I would given up anything She was my whole world and for the first time in my life I have the freedom to do anything but all I want to do is go back to how it was I don't know how I am going to cope
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My is dieing
Grief & Loss / by Merl2010
Last post
 September 21st
...See more My mum is terminally ill and I didn't know about her illness till it was to late as she didn't tell anyone and now I'm trying to care for her and the doctor says can't have any home carers un till she says she wants palliative care and I have no idea how to do the basic care she needs
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So alone
Anxiety Support / by Merl2010
Last post
 July 11th
...See more So just found out my mum is seriously ill and she's been hiding just how bad I have no support from friends or family and I just don't know how to process this
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