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 December 10th, 2018
...See more September-November was hell for my mental state. I havent had to deal w crushes or people liking me or emotions in over 2 years. Then, at the end of September, this group of girls in my club invited me to their apt for drinks. I figured it was as good a way as any to make friends since I didnt know them that well yet. The issue is that one of them (Ill refer to them as A) kept making me drink more and more (way more than they did). Double my normal limit but I managed to stay conscious/not throw up somehow. Theyre also naturally super touchy people, and Im not. By the end of the night I felt violated, since they put their hands up my shirt and felt up my leg w/o me wanting or consenting to this. This led to small panic attacks any time one of them was in the same room as me throughout the week. At the same time I somehow ended up w a crush on one of them, and they already had a crush on me. At a club event later, A confronted me on the panic attacks by telling me that bc I hugged them/held hands w them that any violation was both ways and so bc she didnt feel bad about it then neither should I. I was mad about that but also had no way to make it home if I just left their apt. This is week 1. Ill probably add to this as I come more to terms w the whole saga
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