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Number of ratings47 Number of reviews16 Listens toOver 18 LanguagesEnglish Listener sinceApr 27, 2016 Last activeover 6 months ago GenderNon-Binary PathStep 283 People helped85 Chats236 Group support chats1 Forum posts34 Forum upvotes48
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(Tons of helpful links and resources at the bottom of description) Feeling embarrassed or nervous to talk about something? That's perfectly understandable. Only bring up what you feel comfortable with. But remember, everything we talk about is confidential and practically anonymous. You do not have to share anything you don't want to, but it is very hard to weird me out. This is a judgment free anonymous zone. A little bit about me: I identify as nonbinary and my personality type is XNFP (ambivert, intuitive, feeling, perceiving) I'm a very accepting and open minded person and have had a fair share of struggles in my life, dealing with my own mental illness and trauma. I love philosophy and spirituality, but also a huge advocate of science. With that being said I am open minded to all faiths, beliefs and practices! I enjoy astrology as well and have found self actualization to be very healing. I’m a Pisces, the last sign of the zodiac which is associated with wisdom, empathy, and healing. I am LGBTQ+ friendly and very educated/empathetic towards socioeconomic, gender identity, race, and other issues that minorities especially face. I am a huge advocate for civil rights and justice/equality. We all need a little boost now and again, and the fact that you are here means you're already heading in the right direction. I will do my best to listen and offer you resources to find the help you need. Remember to skim through the Self-Help Guides, or even check out the forums (links below). Chances are you will find out very soon that you are not alone. I hope you find what you're looking for, and if I'm not it, that's alright. There are hundreds of listeners and all of them are here to help support you in your journey. Feel free to leave me a review and be honest. Your reviews, even bad ones, will only make me a better listener in the future. Thank you for stopping by :)                  If you are in a crisis or need professional help and want to text with a trained compassionate counselor text keyword TWLOH to 741-741 when in crisis. Anywhere, anytime. A trained crisis counselor receives the text and responds quickly The crisis counselor listens and helps you through your crisis using Crisis Text Line’s secure platform. The counselor can even help connect you to more resources Link to 7cupsoftea self help guides: http://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php Link to 7cupsoftea Forums: http://www.7cups.com/forum/ Self-Harm support/resources (To Write Love On Her Arms): https://twloha.com/ http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1.800.273.TALK (273-8255) For hearing and speech impaired with TTY equipment: 1.800.799.4TTY (779-4889) Español: 1.888.628.9454 http://www.childhelp.com/National Child Abuse Hotline 1.800.4.A.CHILD (422-4453) http://www.thehotline.org/National Domestic Violence Hotline 1.800.799.SAFE (799-7233) http://www.rain.org Abuse and Incest National Network (RAINN) 1.800.656.HOPE (656-4673) http://www.thetrevorproject.org/The Trevor Project 1.866.4.U.TREVOR (488-7386) http://www.veteranscrisisline.net/Crisis Line 1.800.273.TALK (273-8255) PRESS 1 http://www.crisistextline.org/Crisis Text Line TEXT "TWLOHA" TO 741-741 If you need urgent care/help call 911
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Relapsing Subconsciously? (Or med changes? Both??)
Eating Disorder Support / by MoonlitHaze
Last post
June 7th, 2016
...See more Some Background Slight Trigger Warning So over a year ago I was diagnosed with Anorexia (with Bulimic tendancies). I was very sick at the time. Eating was all that I could think about, more specifically, not eating. It flooded my mind. Every bite I took made me feel like I was gaining. I purged even after eating very small amounts and worked out until I couldn't move anymore. I only consumed maybe [edited by Anomalia for calorie specifics / triggers] calories on a good day. I lost about [edited] pounds in less than a year. I dealt with very low blood pressure, faiting, and misconceived priorities. Recovering I ended up being sent to a psychiatric hospital for about half a year (for things more than an ED) I found a lot of help there, but I actually ended my ED after being discharged. I have not purged for about half a year now (maybe more?) And I don't feel the guilt surrounding my eating habits as much as they used to. I wouldn't say I'm restrictive, but I do try to limit unhealthy foods, but not to the point where I starve myself. My blood pressure had returned to normal and I didn't bruise as easily. But one thing that did make it very difficult was the fact that I was gaining about [edited] pounds a month due to a medication I had been taking. This definantly made it very hard to recover, but in a way. it made me accept the idea of gaining weight. It got to the point of this is just how it is. Now I have been taken off that med that had been making me gain, and put on a stimulant (for ADD). I don't really think about it, but I subconciously just forget to eat. I almost just don't feel hungry. Then when I do eat, I can only eat a small portion because my stomach has probably shrunk. I don't feel sick, nor do I feel mentally unhealthy. I'm honestly really comfortable in my body now, but I can't tell if dropping that med has caused me to lose weight very rapidly and it's just my body trying to go back to normal, or if I'm subconsiouly denying my body food. It's almost like having anorexic tendancies, but without the anorexic mindset. But ocassionally, when I get my monthly weigh in, I can't say that I don't enjoy seeing the numbers seeming to be effortlessly dropping. One thing I am worried about is that this could cause a relapse. I try to think about scenerios in which I get weighed and the number is higher than last time. I feel as if I would relapse, or that I'd be very upset, even depressed. And the rate that I have been losing weight seems a little rapid. When I left the psych unit in December I was [edited]. Last month I was [edited], and today I am [edited]. I don't think about losing weight until I get that slight rush after seeing my weight every month. I almost feel acomplished. I did want to lose weight though, a healthy amount, just to put me back to my average healthy weight, (since the med caused so much gain.) But it's dropping faster and faster, without any effort on my part or thought. I'm worried that once I get to my healthy weight, 1. I won't be able to stop losing, regardless if I want to or not. and 2. It might become a challenge in my head, similar to how it was in my eating disorder, seeing how much weight I can lose, how low I can get. But I am not in that mindset. If I could chose to stay at this weight I would. I don't face the dysmophia or the severe self esteem issues that I had before. But I can't help but notice the tone of excitement when I say, I lost more weight.
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One of the best listeners I have encountered with on this platform. She allowed me to be me and created a judgement free space which allowed me to share openly and effectively. Highly recommend. I am really glad listeners like her exist on this platform .. they help in making the platform better. May god bless you❣💫🙏🏻
Possibly the best on this site!!
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Solid five-star rating. This listener has a lot of insight on the world (in my case, LGBTQ+ issues), and they were able to hear what I have to say and reassure and validate me. I think that's really important to note. I feel very safe with this listener.
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