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My old favorite teachers favoritism crushed me and I didn't realize that until now.

Student Support / by Nate715

February 18th

...See more My old 6th grade writing teacher was probably the only one who gave me hope in my time of hardship that year, which I went to summer school that year. she gave me hope that there were still nice teachers in this world when I had the worst depression imaginable. she, was my favorite teacher, my first favorite teacher, ever. that same year, I made friends with this very pretty girl who looked exactly like me but shorter and if I had more confidence and a better style and lost some weight. she was also very popular, but she had the same personality as me. quiet when irritated, loud when angry, and a similar goofy laugh like mine when I found something amusing. anyways, like all people that year, almost everybody liked my writing teacher for how chill and laid back she was and how relatable she was as well and let you use your phone in class. because my grade was so loud that year, and very disrespectful I didn't think any of the teachers truly liked any of us, but I was wrong. because my friend was in another class that year, I never got the chance to see what she was truly like, her true personality. it wasn't until last year when I got to see how she truly acted in front of people. But she must have did something to make my writing teacher want to see and hang out with her and show her new baby to my friend first. i'm currently in the 8th grade, and my writing teacher got moved up to teach 7th grade, and in the beginning of the school year, she had a baby over the summer and took a maternity leave, and once the baby was a couple weeks old, he was brung into my 8th grade reading class and showed specifically to her up close and the rest of us, were able to see from far away. I didn't think anything of this though. then, I remember all those times in the hallway when my writing teacher was there and my friend was there they would always interact and talk like old friends. in 7th grade, when my writing teacher was still teaching 6th grade, I visited her often until I wasn't allowed to anymore by the assistant principal for I don't know what reasons. but during those small visits, I remember wanting to speak to her alone at one point and how I gathered up the courage to ask to speak to her alone, I never spoke to her. I never asked her how to come out as LGBTQ+ to any of my teachers. I figured since she was often so supportive, she would be best. but she forgot. I wanted advice.. but I guess it was pointless, I came out to 3 of my teachers my seventh grade year. I sort of felt worthless to her after my seventh grade year, that special bond between me and her was gone. I wanted to be relatable to some teacher so bad and prove to myself that all teachers are not bad people. when i saw her again last year a couple months after 8th grade started, I ignored her. whenever I saw her, I just think back to those times I visited her. how much time I wasted and how worthless it was and I felt as if it was a joke that someone as shy as myself could ever ask her for advice on coming out. today, my friend was pulled into her class for 20 minutes for who knows what in her 7th grade homeroom after everyone had gone down to their specials. (in elementary school, specials are classes we have 1-2 times a week such as gym, music class, art, tech, dance, etc. and these were easy grades that don't go towards your GPA yet) and I felt a feeling of jealousy. I remember coming home feeling hurt about how she cared about someone who never visited her and only interacts with her in the hallway rather then someone who wanted to be by her side until that someone graduated and they tried their best before they were shut down. it, crushed me. and I accept the fact it crushed me. because I learned that its better for me to keep quiet. but, I found my teacher who was relatable. I found my favorite teacher this year, and even though i'm still shy around her, she always makes time for those who visit her. to my algebra teacher whos turning 57 this year, I won't ever forget about you and how you prioritize your time and interact with everyone so nobody feels lonely, I respect that.

What a silly morning :)

LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Nate715

February 19th, 2025

...See more I have rainbow beads on my black converse, i put them there not too long ago, about a month ago. my mom didn´t say anything and nor did anyone else say anything. i´ve received one compliment on them. this morning, my mom said for me to take them off as soon as i get home from school, ¨those colors mean gay¨ she said, or something like that, i looked at her confused, because this entire time i´ve kept quiet about sexuality with her, considering what happened a year and a half ago, accidentally coming out to her was something i want to forget. ¨you are straight.¨ she said sternly at me. my intention to put the rainbow colored beads on my converse was so they looked pretty, not because i was coming out to the world as this gentle pansexual giant who struggles having a simple conversation with people, internally i thought this was silly, so i said and i quote: ¨oh but the beads i put on my shoes are solely for decoration and style, i had no intention of meaning anything else.¨ as i sat in the car with her and my siblings, she continued about how people here in america are disgusted by all things (true, true by the way, from personal experience) and that even a simple act can get people to think about you differently, so that made me wonder, who assumed i was gay because of my shoe colors? what if i were straight and i just genuinely liked rainbow colored shoes? why are we assuming a sexuality over shoes?? 😂 i mean, she wasn´t wrong about me being gay, like openly gay and keeping it a secret from her, but imagine if i were straight 😅 my mind came to the one person my mom interacts with, and i genuinely don´t like this woman who talks to my mom at all because she goes on forever with her right after school, and causes us to be late, so i assume its her who assumes something about me considering my mom doesn´t talk to anyone but her lately and nobody has had a problem with my shoes anyways i don´t think i´ll ever be approaching that lady ever again, i´ll stick to waiting in the car, thanks. i´ll keep my styled shoes and my gayness to myself. 😃🏳‍🌈🫶 if you get to the end of this, if your comfortable this is your reminder to come out to a person your close with! your loved! ❤🥹

Gentle Reminder :)

Self-Esteem / by Nate715

January 27th, 2025

gymnastics, weight, and height do not go together for me

Self-Esteem / by Nate715

January 31st, 2025

...See more Hey everyone! Back then, In 6th grade i was already insecure enough until my mom put me in gymnastics. i admit, gymnastics was fun, its just terrible with the group of people i got into. I was put into the 8/9-12 group i assume? level one. i didn´t have a gymnastics leotard. which was fine because leotards are optional. at 11 years old, i was quite tall child. my sister too. i was 5´7 and my sister was 4´10-4´11 possibly.. these girls within our age group were small and thin, all of them were possibly shorter then 4´8 and weighed less then 7 stones, considering most of them were younger then me, i didn´t mind it at all. Until around 2-3 weeks later. I started getting insecure and self conscious as i realized the ´pro´ gymnastics athletes were my height and shorter. i probably looked pathetic, i was even taller then the gymnastics teacher. eventually, i hated gymnastics because i couldn´t do most things the shorter girls within my age group were doing. i remember times i cried and i felt deep embarassment for not doing my hardest within those classes. i was scared of heights. typically we went on high beams without anything to catch us under and i had trouble not looking down, sometimes there was a thick mat to catch us, made me feel less nervous. we had ropes, i thought i could climb up the rope and back down, i didn´t even move up that thing, that felt embarrassing. but the worst time was when i thought i could do something like a backflip, i was confident that day, i volunteered to go first with the new gymnastics teacher we had (after our old classes were done my mom signed me up again) and i was halfway there when i fell on the teachers hands and i felt so much embarrassment. years later, it still haunts me. i never want to return back there ever again. so far, no returns. i´m comfortable doing my own thing, and i´d much rather take classes for fun crafts 😊 (i did it once a fe years ago, super fun!)

Nervous About Dad's surgery next month, and i'm nervous i'll end up being like him.

Grief & Loss / by Nate715

December 23rd, 2024

...See more I really thought i wouldn't end up here, especially after my last post being all happy and fun. but i don't know where to put this story. i'm not close with my dad to the point where i could tell him personal things that him in my life to him, but i resemble him a lot. especially because i'm overweight like him (working so hard to lose weight) and i just got told he's having surgery next month, because, well, he's overweight and he had tumors that could grow back. (not specifying where) he's been struggling to walk and he sits for most of the day, and when he does walk he uses a walker to get around everywhere just at home. he hasn't been out in a while and when he is he's often at the hospital for check-ups. he's continuously eating as before, but more veggies and no red meat, as what the doctors said. for me, its carbs i have to cut but i can't seem to do it, so i've been walking a lot more and trying to go out as much as possible and drinking more water. I'm trying to look at the positives here, he did say earlier to his sister, my aunt, that he does want to get better and he's truly trying and i believe in him and i believe that surgery could go well. but none of my family members ever had surgery, at least no surgery for a few decades. i've only known that my mom had surgery to remove her gull bladder, maybe her gull bladder stones? i'm not too sure. and i've got a huge phobia of surgery and i'm terrified it doesn't go well. I don't want him to die and i want to be healthy, i want him to see me graduate. but it sucks being in a family where health issues are just passed down.

Happy Holidays everyone!

7 Cups Online Therapy / by Nate715

December 23rd, 2024

Food choices, dieting, and any motivation to continue dieting?

Healthy Living / by Nate715

November 27th, 2024

...See more hi everyone! whether you may or may not know me, i'm nate. by the time im posting this, its close to midnight, but just know i had a doctors appointment today, not the time im done finishing this which is 11/26. As you can tell, i had a doctors appointment today, and it wasn't a very good one. i'm in my teens, or i'm 13, and obese. not physically obese too much, just extra meat on the bones here and there, some being more then other places. I'm an extremely tall teen, 5'9 1/2 and so are my siblings, but they aren't as tall as me when i was their ages. so, i guess my height also helps with my body. and, i'm not gonna hide anything, i'm just going to say it straight up, i'm 2-4-2 lbs or 1-0-9.8 kg. every year i'd gain about 3-0 lbs but from ages 12-13 i really tried to cut down as much as possible, and i ended up gaining only 1-1 lbs i'm at risk for heart disease, type 2 diabetes, and a stroke. along with that, my father is also obese and he recently ended up at the hospital for a blood clot. my mom's side of the family has a history with diabetes, which i assume its a higher risk to diabetes now that its passed down? if i'm correct? i have stretchmarks which cover 65-70% of my body and i learned to be confident in it :-) My doctor put me on a low/no carb diet, which is where the food choices and the dieting comes from, and it hurts, but after a couple hours, i think i might get used to it, restricting and stuff. so i ask, any motivation to continue dieting and what i should do and what not? my goal is to lose 9-2 lbs and i'm going as low as i can with the carbs, 10 and lower with breakfast, lunch, and dinner foods, and 20 carbs or less with snacks for now until i see a change in weight. really unfortunate since thanksgiving is right around the corner :( any recipes, motivation, and how many hours i should be walking a day? one way i'm motivating myself is knowing i'll lose weight and knowing theres tons of people who are doing a low carb diet too and its not just "fat" people, it can be anyone. plus, i get to go shopping to find and make tasty low carb meals for the next 3-4 months, which is what my doctor put me on and hopefully i'll lose 12-24 pounds :-) to any teen or adult who goes through the same thing, obesity, or health problems, just know your not alone and we can start our weight loss/getting back to good health journey together! i'll keep everyone updated once i go to the doctors again today (its 12am as i write this) to get a blood test, and hopefully theres nothing wrong. love yourself, and theres always a hope to change for the better of your future <3

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