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NightWitch
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Suicide survivors
Anxiety Support / by NightWitch
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 September 15th, 2023
...See more Those of us left behind after a successful suicide are destroyed. I have anxiety and panic attacks I never had before. My psychiatrist says I also have PTSD because I found my son him on his bed after putting a bullet through his brain. I was frantically looking for a pulse and couldn't find one. He died so fast. I was checking for a pulse not even 5 minutes after he did it and we heard the gunshot. I will never be the person I used to be, nor will I become the person I would have become if my son had not done this. I felt safe with him here. I felt safe if I had to run errands at night. I knew how would take care of me, he was 30 years old and I needed his help with a great deal. I can't figure out why he did it! What happened to suddenly cause him to do this? He was having lots of pain and constant vomiting from going off a migraine medication called Aimovig. We knew it could be a year or more with these withdrawal system but I really believed he would be able to get through it. His dentist broke the bone in his face up to the orbital socket and wouldn't give him pain medication. His psychiatrist was doing everything sh could to help him but he never told anyone that he was wanting to kill himself. He killed the person I used to be when he did that. He was my only child. I'm not a mother anymore, I don't know what I am........
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