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Nola1818
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Depression relapse?
Depression Support / by Nola1818
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 July 28th, 2019
...See more Someone posted on here a list of what they do after a depression relapse which I didn't know happened to other people. I thought I was exaggerating my feelings or making these feelings up in my head but now I feel a little bit less insane. I haven't had any that bad lately earlier this year they would last months at a time but it's been okay recently until this week. I have been feeling so depressed this week for no reason at all and things like brushing my teeth or getting out of bed have been so hard but I know it'll pass. Anybody else experience this?
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SH marks + the beach
Self-Harm Recovery / by Nola1818
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 October 28th, 2019
...See more Currently at the beach and I'm extremely hot wearing pants to cover my old burn marks not enjoying myself at all. I just feel uncomfortable not being in a bathing suit when it's 97 degrees. This sucks can't wait to leave.
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Why do I get triggered?
Self-Harm Recovery / by Nola1818
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 September 1st, 2019
...See more So I haven't been on here in a while because someone on here was being a little rude to me but heyyy everyone. I have been happy for the most part and I'm trying to put my past completely behind me and so far that's been going well but when I was at orientation I met this really nice girl and she had so many scars and I got super triggered and still am triggered. I'm happy and I don't need to self harm for punishment like I did before now it's just a random feeling when I see scars or fresh wounds. I don't know why or what to do because if we hang out I'm just gonna be triggered every time which isn't a good idea but I'm not just gonna stay away from her because she should feel comfortable showing her scars whenever and wherever so I'm happy she's comfortable but what would I kinda do to not get triggered.
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How I am feeling rn
Self-Harm Recovery / by Nola1818
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 June 30th, 2019
...See more I don't think my last thread went through but long story short I took my learner's permit picture today and now I completely hate the way I look which makes me hate myself. I predicted this would happen because I have low self esteem and some days are better than but others but days when I see a picture of myself I break down and cry because of how ugly I look in the picture. I can't help being shallow and only caring about my looks. When I hate myself on the outside I hate myself on the inside to. I keep telling myself I'm beautifully and wonderfully made but I don't seem to believe this time. I was happy this morning untill this picture. I can't be happy when I feel like the ugliest person on Earth I just can't. I HATE MYSELF I REALLY REALLY DO😢 I've learned enough by now to know these feelings are temporary and may go away tm or a week from now but they always come back and I am not strong enough to fight my negative feelings when they are this strong.
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What I'm feeling rn
Depression Support / by Nola1818
Last post
 July 7th, 2019
...See more I'm feeling really ugly and I hate myself so much right now. I'm tired of going up hill and then falling flat on my face each and every time. I don't deserve this 😢 I deserve to be happy for more than just to 2 hours. I got over my depression and it tries to creep back in every chance it gets to destroy me. I HATE THIS DAY AND I HATE MYSELF !!!!
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