How I am feeling rn

I don't think my last thread went through but long story short I took my learner's permit picture today and now I completely hate the way I look which makes me hate myself. I predicted this would happen because I have low self esteem and some days are better than but others but days when I see a picture of myself I break down and cry because of how ugly I look in the picture. I can't help being shallow and only caring about my looks. When I hate myself on the outside I hate myself on the inside to. I keep telling myself I'm beautifully and wonderfully made but I don't seem to believe this time. I was happy this morning untill this picture. I can't be happy when I feel like the ugliest person on Earth I just can't. I HATE MYSELF I REALLY REALLY DO😢 I've learned enough by now to know these feelings are temporary and may go away tm or a week from now but they always come back and I am not strong enough to fight my negative feelings when they are this strong.