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Reii9
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Lost, Isolated, and Trying to Rebuild My Life
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 April 29th
...See more Hi, I really need someone to talk to. I’ve been feeling deeply depressed, anxious, and overwhelmed. My situation has been very isolating for years. Since the pandemic started, I’ve been mostly locked inside my house and restricted from going out. My parents are good but very overprotective, and because of this I’ve lost touch with the outside world. I don’t even know how to interact with people properly anymore. I feel socially disconnected and alone. Before all this, I was a happy and good student. But during the pandemic my father got very sick with COVID, and I was constantly anxious and scared. That fear and stress affected my focus, and I couldn’t give my 10th boards. I repeated 10th and worked extremely hard I studied around 12 hours daily and felt proud of myself. But after that, things went downhill. I took PCM and started well, but after shifting homes something changed in me. I became mentally exhausted, depressed, distracted, and completely inconsistent. I ended up wasting 11th and 12th. I even repeated 12th but still couldn’t study because I was so depressed, mentally low and had anxiety and I had no one to talk about this openly. It felt like I lost control of my life. Now I’m 20 and trying to restart through open schooling and preparing for competitive exams, but the gap feels huge and overwhelming. I constantly overthink, feel anxiety about my future, and regret my past. I feel like I’ve ruined my life. Sometimes I get suicidal thoughts and it scares me. I’ve been isolated for years, with no real friends or emotional support. I never had proper guidance or someone I could trust and talk to. It feels like I’ve been living in a cage since 2019. I want to get out of this, I want to improve, I want to build my life again but everything feels too heavy and confusing. I’m trying to study again and change, but my mind is filled with anxiety, self doubt, and depression. I feel lost and frustrated. I just need someone to listen, understand, and help me figure out how to move forward step by step.
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