Lost, Isolated, and Trying to Rebuild My Life
Hi, I really need someone to talk to. I’ve been feeling deeply depressed, anxious, and overwhelmed. My situation has been very isolating for years. Since the pandemic started, I’ve been mostly locked inside my house and restricted from going out. My parents are good but very overprotective, and because of this I’ve lost touch with the outside world. I don’t even know how to interact with people properly anymore. I feel socially disconnected and alone. Before all this, I was a happy and good student. But during the pandemic my father got very sick with COVID, and I was constantly anxious and scared. That fear and stress affected my focus, and I couldn’t give my 10th boards. I repeated 10th and worked extremely hard I studied around 12 hours daily and felt proud of myself. But after that, things went downhill. I took PCM and started well, but after shifting homes something changed in me. I became mentally exhausted, depressed, distracted, and completely inconsistent. I ended up wasting 11th and 12th. I even repeated 12th but still couldn’t study because I was so depressed, mentally low and had anxiety and I had no one to talk about this openly. It felt like I lost control of my life. Now I’m 20 and trying to restart through open schooling and preparing for competitive exams, but the gap feels huge and overwhelming. I constantly overthink, feel anxiety about my future, and regret my past. I feel like I’ve ruined my life. Sometimes I get suicidal thoughts and it scares me. I’ve been isolated for years, with no real friends or emotional support. I never had proper guidance or someone I could trust and talk to. It feels like I’ve been living in a cage since 2019. I want to get out of this, I want to improve, I want to build my life again but everything feels too heavy and confusing. I’m trying to study again and change, but my mind is filled with anxiety, self doubt, and depression. I feel lost and frustrated. I just need someone to listen, understand, and help me figure out how to move forward step by step.
@Reii9
You are very young you have time to make up for lost time or whatever you feel you missed.
I feel many went through things like that during covid. it sucks and feels heavy when you see a list of things you feel you need to catch up on but the beauty of it is it only takes one step at a time. life as we become adults is confusing and a bit scary but like most things once we try it is not as bad or overwhelming as we made it out to be.
Thank you I really appreciate you saying that It honestly means a lot to hear, I’ve been feeling stuck for a long time, so even though I know I’m still young, it’s been hard not to feel like I’ve fallen behind, But what you said about taking it one step at a time really helped me see things a bit differently I guess I don’t have to fix everything all at once and I’m trying to slowly rebuild and get better even if it’s just small steps for now. Thanks again for taking the time to write this it genuinely helped 🤍
@Reii9
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@Reii9 Hey, sorry you're feeling this way but I have to say 20 is just the beginning! Your entire life is in front of you, it's not too late at all. You can start with the idea that you still have all the time needed on your hands. Regretting the past at such an age is really energy-consuming, but you haven't wasted any of those years, you say yourself that you worked hard and you probably did your best under the given circumstances. I hope you've already consulted a specialist on depression and anxiety issues because sometimes it's chemical and I have a very positive experience with treating depression. That could give you an energy boost you need to build your life again. Anyway, it is definitely possible (and maybe unavoidable) that your life will get better and soon. I wish you all the best in this endeavor.
I really appreciate you taking the time to write this It actually felt genuine not just something said for the sake of it, I’ve been struggling with a lot of overthinking and feeling stuck, so hearing this helped more than I expected I’m trying to focus on moving forward, even if it’s slow, Thanks again for your words I really mean it
Hello @Reii9,
Dealing with anxiety, isolation, and not having proper guidance can be extremely difficult. I also want to say that I am really proud of you for trying to go back and move forward despite everything. If you'd like someone to talk to, I'm here and happy to listen to you anytime.
Thanks for saying this. It really means a lot and I’m trying to work through things step by step at my own pace 🤍
I might delete this post later on cus it is personal (also i promised to give myself a break) but i hope u see it and know ur not alone and i know im mot alone in this too
but i RELATE. Like rlly do, covid messed up my situation fr, i have been isolated aswell
I’m really glad you shared this I relate more than I can explain… It helps knowing someone else understands I hope you'll get better too 🤍
Thank you 🫂 i hope u recover soon too, it saved me knowing i wasnt alone in this i remember feeling relief yesterday that i had found someone to relate to and i havent felt that in weeks honestly 💖
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Hey so i wanted to say that i am in the same boat as you
i am 20 and and still haven't been to college, a failed double dropper, i have been home since Covid and have severe social anxiety. And mental health issues from early teens, it's very difficult to live like this so i get you.
my parents are also very supportive and calm but i am the one who has failed them, just wanted to let you know you aren't alone in this, life is tough especially in india 🫂
I really felt this I relate to a lot of what you said, especially the isolation and feeling stuck and honestly, you haven’t failed your parents you’re just going through a tough phase, I’m glad you shared this it made me feel less alone 🕊️🤍
@Reii9 hey buddy are you ok, shall we talk?
Yeah ofcourse I'd like that too buddy 🤍
The world is entering a troubled time. Some sense this. Depressed see reality clearer. You can be depressed and live.
If you’re suffering any of these your vision is blurry your bodies normal functions don’t work normally, your constantly tired or unable to process you cant sleep or can’t feel or sense you may have a depressed nervous system. Any of these or your instincts say so see a doctor please.
I just reread your post you are please see a doctor.
You would not tell an anorexic to run a marathon you would say you need to learn to eat to do that. You need to accept you need to develop cognitive capacity before study is realistic.
Thank you for actually reading all that and replying honestly, i'm really grateful you said it straight instead of just stay strong, i've been trying to force study for my exams while my head is still foggy, tired, and anxious all the time and you're right it isn't working, i'm going to book an appointment this week and get checked properly before i push study again and thanks for looking out 🤍
Heyy hi......bro i just read your post ....and tbh I am going through the kinda same thing ..like rn am 18 preparing for an entrance and was sort of having PTSD ... it's actually becoming tough to focus on my studies and you know am feeling lost .......you are not alone darling.....you will come out of it ....and I believe that I will also........let's shine together okayy......and please just try not to thik about suicide or any self harm......we will be fine okay dear......love you so muchh...and am so proud of you that even after all this you are still alive and strong....my prayers are always with you ...may God bless you babyy!!🫶🏻🫂
heyy hi sakshi..... thank you for reading all that and writing this, i'm sorry you're going through the same lost feeling at 18 with entrance prep, i know that focus problem too well, i felt exactly like you described, you're not alone either let's shine together okayy... i'm trying to stay away from the dark thoughts too and i'm actually going to see a doctor this week to get my head sorted first and please look after yourself too, if the ptsd feelings get too heavy talk to someone you trust yeah? thank you for saying you're proud of me that hit hard... i'm proud of you too for still pushing at 18 after all this. your prayers mean a lot, God bless you too 🕊️🤍