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SereneHope
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atli/aurel • smilefortoday.carrd.co • 22 • college student • bpd + traits of dpd • bipolar i • gad • social anxiety • ptsd • trauma & anorexia survivor • trying my best to be a good person, go to therapy, take my meds & get through my days while being kind to all & inspire others
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is this abuse & what are some tips on trying to cope with types of abuse at home? (tw: text-heavy, parental/relationship abuse)
Trauma Support / by SereneHope
Last post
 August 16th, 2020
...See more hi there, i hope today has been kind to you & that a lot of sweetness will come your way! ♡ & i wanted to share here, since i feel safer anonymously, and since i am home a lot more often now due to quarantine, i noted how exhausted i am at home, and thought it may be linked to some things i feel at home lately: i was wondering, what are some ways to cope with these actions from my parents & are these types of abuse/an abusive household? thank you kindly, my mother: • constant invalidation/ a lack of emotional support. (decides how i feel, judging, denying, minimizing, trivialization, and/or nonverbally invalidating my emotions to the point i feel it is pointless to share them.) - an unspoken rule at home is that i am not allowed to cry, as in the past i have been treated as i am inexistent, that i have no right to do so, and/or for emotional/physical force when doing so. - i feel that i am not allowed to express my emotions freely or grieve, though when she is sad, if i dont comfort her, things are worse for me and my dad. • i do not feel i can safely come out to her or my dad about my pronouns/gender or sexual/romantic orientation. • she tells me what to wear and how to wear my hair or clothes. - she insults me or calls me dusty/says dont wear that, doesnt like for me to leave the apartment without her fixing me and will be visibly upset and tell me to come to her, so she can fix me before leaving. • from time to time, she makes me feel guilty (or guilt-trips) me for expressing affection more warmly to leo (our furry family member) instead of her. • she wants me to be dependent on her & stay with her forever, to the point where i was simply boiling tea and told me to not do that, i will get burned, and that she wants me to stay with her always and have her do everything for me. my father: • constant invalidation/ a lack of emotional support. (decides how i feel, judging, denying, minimizing, trivialization, and/or nonverbally invalidating my emotions to the point i feel it is pointless to share them.) - an unspoken rule at home is that i am not allowed to cry, as in the past i have been treated as i am inexistent, that i have no right to do so, and/or for emotional/physical force when doing so; he has mocked and put his hands on me for crying before (especially because it was due to him yelling so much i could not take it). - i feel that i am not allowed to express my emotions freely or grieve, though when he is sad or angry, if i dont comfort him, things are worse for me and my mom. my mother & father's relationship: • they call each other names, puts each other down constantly, criticize each other, always blame each other, there is no compromise. • they yell & screaming at each other; my father isolates my mother from everyone she could consider support, especially family and friends. • he makes her feel like she cant do anything right, and has a near-decade age gap. - with this power imbalance, she is completely dependent on him, and he forbids to help her get disability/education/pursue citizenship status. - i have to help her (or she guilt trips) and says i am the only one who can help her. - he controls her finances, when she leaves the house, has not taught her or me to drive, so we rely on him, and she cooks/cleans/does almost everything for him without much or any gratitude, thankfulness, and he jokes that she abuses him. i am an adult, though as i work and go to college, i do not make enough to live on my own currently. (due to an action i found out my dad has been taking that could lead to dire consequences, i am currently unable to continue financial aid until i am reapproved/verified, although i qualify as we are low-income/poor.) my brothers have sexually abused me, so i cannot live with them, and i do not have friends yet that i can live with. i also have a number of other mental illnesses, which all contribute to the difficulties of living alone and making enough. as a family, we have relied on welfare/governmental aid/assisted housing our whole lives, and my mother does not work due to disability, plus my father is semi-retired/on unemployment, so my father and i are the only sources of income. regardlessly, i do my best to use healthy coping skills, save up the money that i can, and try to be kind to my parents/brothers when i have to interact with them. tl;dr: i was wondering, what are some ways to cope with these actions from my parents & are these actions that are bulleted/noted from my mother/father/their relationship types of abuse/an abusive household? (i am trying to cope the best i can despite how i feel it is mentally exhausting to live here.) & thank you for your time, i appreciate it & hope things are kind to you! ♡
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i feel unimportant to my best friend...
Relationship Stress / by SereneHope
Last post
 April 25th, 2020
...See more i feel like i double-text too much & one of my best friends doesn't feel like spending as much time with me as much as i'd like to with her, one of them, i messaged her on march 26th, saying goodnight after playing a video game together, then texted on march 28th, to thank her for a gift she mailed me & then texted again on april 8th to check in, then i finally heard from her on april 11th & i replied back to her, after that, i double-texted & wished her a happy birthday on the 19th, i sent her two birthday gifts that was delivered earlier this week following the 19th, as well as one in a game, i haven't heard from her in almost two weeks now & i also tagged her in a post that reminded me of her, yesterday, the 24th i see she's still very active on other social media, though, not responding to my messages & i feel sad about that... especially since we were hoping to meet up & i had to cancel my plans to visit in march due to covid, & she was so excited as we met in 2015 & finally was going to see each other & i was so heartbroken to tell her we had to cancel,, now, i'm afraid she doesn't really care much about me & i'm overinvested when i see her talking with others & not me... i've reached out to her after periods of time we lost touch in the past, we recently reconnected again last year, though i feel like i might be over-iniating to talk to her, i just really miss her, even though we've only met online, she's still special & imporant to me, regardless, even if she may not be as reciprocating, i want her to know that i care about her a lot, & i don't know how she sees me or if i am even her best friend to her, i feel so hurt seeing how much effort i put in & feeling like she's just drifting away, thank you for your time & anyone who reads this, i'm very appreciative & i just wanted to share this without anyone in my friend group knowing . . .
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