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Shatteredmusic
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PathStep 8 Compassion hearts54 Forum posts7 Forum upvotes9 Current upvotes9 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2023 Member sinceSeptember 22, 2017
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Failing at life
Depression Support / by Shatteredmusic
Last post
 July 30th, 2023
...See more I don’t remember the last time I finished something and mastered it. I have such bad luck in everything. Nothing works out. Ever since age 13, I have been living on autopilot. Passed my school by cheating, failed highschool, had to do freshmen yr, failed uni, dropped out, can’t get a job, and when I applied to uni again and I was about to start, the visa got delayed and who knows if it’ll even work out so now I got an extra yr at home doing absolutely nth but feel worthless and gap years look bad for unis. I already wasted three yrs while my school friends are already graduating. Can’t do anything either bcz I’m short on money and the job market is so competitive these days, they need a degree for everything these days. Let alone, ever since that age, I’ve been getting constantly traumatized by ppl too. Got anxiety, ptsd and depression. Every time I picked up a hobby, I quit it after a few months. So yeah I have literally nothing left to even stay here for. Nothing to look forward to. Life is just so meaningless. Other than that, I feel dependent on my family all the time and as a girl I’m not allowed to do pretty much so many things according to my fam since they’re overprotective so yeah I just feel caged up and I want any possible way to just be finally independent emotionally and financially. Plus, I don’t have any friends at all, so yeah that sums my life up. I don’t even know if anyone will even read this, but oh well. [Edited by FrenchMarbles because text colour was white]
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Overwhelmed
Anxiety Support / by Shatteredmusic
Last post
 November 3rd, 2021
...See more Overwhelmed. Out of breathe. Sleepy but I can’t sleep bcz I have so much to do. Dark circles under my eyes. Feel like I’m on the verge of having another breakdown. Really tired. Always on edge. I just need a hug. I need someone to care about me and not online. I want someone irl to just hug me and be there. It hurts.
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