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Relationship Stress / by Smallpandi
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 January 14th, 2019
...See more Hi, hope someone can help me with my issue. Here's the story. Me and my boyfriend has been together for nearly 3 years now, but i broke up with him early this year (2018) as i was feeling depressed and suicidal where it got to a point i was only able to sleep holding a knife. My bestfriend took me on holiday and said to forget about my troubles, but even then i was still not feeling well and i decided to break up with my bf because he was also one of the reasons why i was depressed. After breaking up with him i got drunk and kissed someone, after months of the break up i felt like the need to throw myself away so i let those who wanted to take advantage of me take advantage because i didn't feel like i had anything to lose. We got back together after months of broken up and i am showing him i am trying my best to change for breaking him that way, but he still brings up that i broke up with him to kiss someone and whenever i talk to my friends that i met on holiday he would accuse me of flirting with them even though i wasn't. I've been losing sleep and started to be paranoid and anxious again because of it and it tears me up inside that he says he trusts me but in reality he is just accusing me of being flirty with other guys he doesn't know and think i will sleep with them. What do i do? I am trying my best not to fall back into those dark days i experienced but i know i am slowly slipping into it and i can't stop it, i keep thinking maybe i should just break up with him since he doesn't trust me but i love him even if he broke me again and again.
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