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SmollPeridotsBreakdown
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Bio


I will usually only be on Monday through Friday, 8am to 3 pm mountain standard time.


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I don’t really know what to put here but I am cool being called Ash, smoll, peridot, or peri.

I've struggled with things like depression, self-harm, autism/adhd, and anxiety. My friends are my life and I owe so much to them. If I’m saying things like mmmmm or using … then I probably am having problems or not feeling good, usually in a mental sense.

I’m into art and music. I like to try and write songs or at least poetry type stuff.

I play bass guitar in my schools Jazz band and am super into music so im always up to talk about that stuff!

Caps can be trigger for me, as well as anything graphic, loss can be a bit triggering but I'm usually fine discussing it, and yeah i think that's it but it can vary a bit moment to moment.



Pronouns:

They/he/she(anything else besides it/its are fine to though i lean a bit away from she/her)




some quotes I love:

  • I said I was sorry. I meant it. 
  • Choose people not sides
  • As a whole people suck. But a person can be extraordinary.
  • I’m not crazy. My reality is just different from yours.
  • “I am sexually afraid”-word prediction
  • Sometimes you have to lose your mind to find your soul
  • gender is a performance and today's show has been canceled due to lack of interest.
  • "Ik we lurk but anxiety lurks harder"-seraphlynn
  • “No dying in TCR. Makes the place untidy”- brilliantTurtle89
  • hope you're feeling wonderness!
  • I am not an early bird or a night owl. I am some form of permanently exhausted pigeon
  • spend your life doing strange things with weird people
  • Sounds like its time for me to break in >:D
  • Problem there no is not
  • *long scream* I'm about to have a mental breakdown because of a piece of bread
  • I can taste the beans in my throat
  • Y'know, fruity pebbles are one of my favourite cereals and not JUST because they're fruity
  • Feel free to give me more quotes for this!




Just some things I like:

  • Animals
  • Drawing
  • Aliens
  • frogs
  • Halloween
  • Pokemon
  • Rats( i have one beautiful baby ratty boy named robin)
  • Poetry
  • I'm a huge music person and am always happy to discuss music

I hope anyone reading this is doing good. You’ve all made it this far so why stop now.



#dinozforlife








Recent forum posts
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Anxiety Support / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 March 17th
...See more i finally feel like i have found something to hold on to, but my anxiety keeps telling me that im messing things up and that i'm going to loss it. any advice?
A little space
Journals & Diaries / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 February 29th
...See more not quite sure where to put this so it's going in here. I use age regression to cope(its basically the only healthy coping i have), but i've found that without support/someone to talk to it ends up going wrong somewhere (impure regression, flashbacks, etc.). However i don't have a safe space to talk to anyone in that mindset due to the room guidelines here(don't get me started on how stupid i find it, i know its for safety but still).  So im creating this forum so i can have a sort of space for that. Any other regressors can feel free to use this space as well as any non regressors who want to support. Just please be kind and respectful.
Memorial type thing i guess for my lil baby boy noah
Grief & Loss / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 February 8th
...See more This picture is from back when i had first gotten him, hadnt had him for more than a week when i  took this photo. I miss my sweet baby boy so much. I'll love you forever noah<3
Just a little fyi
General Support / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 January 26th
...See more Hey i just wanted to let everyone know i'm probably not going to be on very much(as i already havent really been). Life has just gotten a little crazy and complicated, i won't go to into the details, just don't want to leave everyone without an explanation. I will still be trying to be on just not very often and likely not for long periods at a time. @AvyIsKing@teenmorgan16@hardworkingHuman4356@AstroIsABee@EchoTheDragon@theboymoana@LoveMyMoonflowers@taylorhugs12@Darkerplaces@kylersartpace lemme know if there's anyone i missed tagging 
For @kylersartpace
Pen Pals / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 March 11th
...See more This forum if for Kyler and all his friends for when he ages up. He just wants to have a space with all of you @Dragovin7 @teenmorgan16 @IamAubrey23 @Rackson More people will be tagged later on!
Some poems by me!
Poetry / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 November 15th, 2023
...See more Hey so I’m just going to use this thread to post some poems and writing things I’ve done!
How can I cope with being trans in school?
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 July 29th, 2023
...See more Hey I’m ash 👋 I am afab and genderfrect(basically genderfluid but with a stronger connection to masculine genders) and I’ve gotten really insecure about my body, more dysphoria than ever lately, and I’m going back to school in under a month. No one besides a few close friends knows who I really am and I don’t know what to do. I don’t think I can survive the year having everyone calling me she/her and by my legal name but I’m scared to try and ask people to call me he/they and ash because most people in my school are homophobic and unaccepting and I don’t want to face more harassment.I don’t know what to do. I just need help. I know some ways to ease the dysphoria for myself with things like binding although most of my dysphoria is bottom dysphoria. Idk I’m probably just rambling on here. But I’m completely open to any suggestions. And uh yeah. Take care, be safe, and luv you all./p
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