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SmollPeridotsBreakdown
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If I'm not on and you need to talk to me tag me in a forum and I'll get back to you as soon as I can!

I will usually only be on Monday through Friday, 7:00 am to 2:30 pm mountain time.



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I am cool being called Ash, smoll, peridot, or peri.

(TW)

I've struggled with things like depression, self-harm, autism/adhd, and anxiety.

I have POTS which has also left me with chronic pain and fatigue.

If I’m saying things like mmmmm or using … then I probably am having problems or not feeling good, usually in a mental sense.


lil bit about me

I’m into art and music. I like to try and write songs or at least poetry type stuff.

I've played bass guitar and a wide variety of percussion instruments. I've played in concert bands, jazz bands, marching bands, and indoor percussion groups. Every single group I play with holds a special place in my heart, I am almost always happy to discuss anything music related whether that be in the sense of playing or listening

Current main instrument is synth

some quotes I love:

  • I said I was sorry. I meant it. 
  • Choose people not sides
  • As a whole people suck. But a person can be extraordinary.
  • I’m not crazy. My reality is just different from yours.
  • “I am sexually afraid”-word prediction
  • Sometimes you have to lose your mind to find your soul
  • gender is a performance and today's show has been canceled due to lack of interest.
  • "Ik we lurk but anxiety lurks harder"-seraphlynn
  • “No dying in TCR. Makes the place untidy”- brilliantTurtle89
  • hope you're feeling wonderness!-irl friend
  • I am not an early bird or a night owl. I am some form of permanently exhausted pigeon
  • spend your life doing strange things with weird people
  • Sounds like its time for me to break in >:D-me
  • Problem there no is not
  • *long scream* I'm about to have a mental breakdown because of a piece of bread- irl friend
  • I can taste the beans in my throat- irl friend
  • Y'know, fruity pebbles are one of my favourite cereals and not JUST because they're fruity- irl friend
  • I want to make life so achingly lovely that you could never bear to leave it
  • socks are deadly!- irl friend
  • *long scream* I am about to have a mental breakdown because of a piece of bread- irl friend
  • To forget someone you love, is like trying to remember someone you never knew
  • it smells like wet rain -irl friend
  • WAFFLE HOUSE! mhm. i got it.-irl friend

  • Feel free to give me more quotes for this!




Just some things I like:

  • Animals
  • Drawing
  • Aliens
  • frogs
  • Halloween
  • Pokemon
  • Rats(I have one beautiful baby ratty boy named robin)
  • Poetry
  • I'm a huge music person and am always happy to discuss music


Comfort characters

  • Kirishima (mha)
  • 2-D (Gorillaz)
  • Clementine (yaelokre)
  • Wybie (Coraline)

Music, band, and writing things of mine:

  • https://www.7cups.com/forum/hobbyzone/General_2426/SeniormarchingbandspeechBandimonies_340264/ 
  • https://www.7cups.com/forum/poetry/General_2553/Somepoemsbyme_310152/ 

Mental & Physical health related posts:

  • https://www.7cups.com/forum/disabilities/ChronicConditionsSupport_710/Copingwithchronicpainillness_344703/

I hope anyone reading this is doing good. You’ve all made it this far so why stop now.


#dinozforlife







Recent forum posts
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I need critiques for lyrics I'm writing
Hobby Zone / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 May 26th
...See more At a table for two Letting me vent, taking all of my mess Coffee got cold but you stayed anyway That's when I knew you were here to stay People ask questions when you hold my hand Judging the lines and where they blur You're just my person, that’s all I can say Looking at us like it's destined to be But you're everything I need, just not how they think No pressure, no labels, no guarantees You're just my person, and that's enough for me That's enough for me You sat on the floor when my world fell apart Asked no questions, just sat by my side Your head on my shoulder, my hand in your coat You're the steady hand keeping me afloat. They see what we have and they think they know more But this love needs no name to be pure You're just my person, that’s all I can say Looking at us like it's written in stars But you're everything I need, just not how they think No pressure, no labels, no guarantees You're just my person, and that's enough for me That's enough for me Some hearts heal with distance Some with a gentle hand We don't have to cross that line I’m not yours and you’re not mine I’ll leave the rest to fate’s design You're just my person, and that won't change Writing our own rules, no need to explain You're everything I need, just not how they think No pressure, no labels, no guarantees You're just my person, and that's enough for me Yeah, that's enough for me
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Sebastian (pressure) 3-d Modeling project!
Arts & Crafts / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 March 10th, 2025
...See more I had a 3-d modeling project where we had to model a monster, 3 objects, and a ground for them. I chose to make my monster Sebastian from pressure, and for my objects i went overboard and did 5 instead of 3. my objects were files, a desk, the imaginary friend, an item locker, and a flash drive.  
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Coping with chronic pain/illness
Disability Support / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 January 17th, 2025
...See more I've had a lot of issues with POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome), chronic pain, fatigue, and more along with mental issues. I was only diagnosed with POTS very recently, which it has been a bit of a help to have the diagnosis because I am better believed when I talk about my issues and I have a bit more access to help. However it has also been incredibly hard, I only got diagnosed because my symptoms have gotten increasingly worse (main thing that led to actually being believed and getting the diagnosis was fainting at school) and I'm not sure how to deal with it, I have terrible pain in my hands and legs almost constantly, I can't stand without moving a lot for more than maybe 10-15 minutes or else pain becomes worse and I get very lightheaded. I'm trying to work with people to make life feel liveable again but the pain alone has become almost unbearable. So that's why I'm reaching out here, I'm open to any ideas to help cope mentally with it all as well as any sources of pain relief. 
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Deco paci ideas
Arts & Crafts / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 December 15th, 2024
...See more I am an age regressor and I just got my first proper pacifier for my little space, I want to make it a deco and have the theme be toothless. I'm looking for ideas and inspirations and would appreciate any help!
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Senior marching band speech (Bandimonies)
Hobby Zone / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 November 11th, 2024
...See more Every year my schools marching band does what we call bandimonies, its where all the seniors in the band give a short speech to the band. Everyone recommends starting on your ideas for it as soon as you can, so despite only being a sophomore I want to start now I organized a few ideas and topics to talk about and have written a draft that I want to get some opinions on For reference K is a friend, E is another friend, D is a director, R is also a director This is going to sound corny and I'm sure you’ve all heard this a million times from seniors in their bandimonies but band truly saved me. I first started band in my freshman year with copper mountains jazz band, i had never truly committed and learned an instrument before but the band needed someone to play bass and E recommended me to D, with his help i was able to learn so much in a very short amount of time, I will always be grateful to him for pushing me to learn more and get better.  I joined marching band and percussion my sophomore year and almost gave up time and time again, i lost many people dear to me that year but R and everyone in front ensemble with me were understanding and helped me push through and make the absolute best of a very rough situation.  I’ve gone through a lot of mental health issues over the year but music and band has been there for me through it all.  Then theres K, she’s been my absolute best friend since the 3rd grade, she inspired me to join band and get into music, she’s stuck with me through thick and thin. I don't know where I’d be without her. Thank you K. It’s been an amazing experience to be here with you all and see everyone including myself grow over the years. Thank you all and I hope to keep in touch with anyone who’d like to and I’d love to see what you all go on to do in the future.  Again this is a very rough draft and some parts just hit main topics or points I may want to bring up
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IDK
Anxiety Support / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 March 17th, 2024
...See more i finally feel like i have found something to hold on to, but my anxiety keeps telling me that im messing things up and that i'm going to loss it. any advice?
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A little space
Journals & Diaries / by SmollPeridotsBreakdown
Last post
 February 29th, 2024
...See more not quite sure where to put this so it's going in here. I use age regression to cope(its basically the only healthy coping i have), but i've found that without support/someone to talk to it ends up going wrong somewhere (impure regression, flashbacks, etc.). However i don't have a safe space to talk to anyone in that mindset due to the room guidelines here(don't get me started on how stupid i find it, i know its for safety but still).  So im creating this forum so i can have a sort of space for that. Any other regressors can feel free to use this space as well as any non regressors who want to support. Just please be kind and respectful.
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