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SoftHeartedFool
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Relationship Stress / by SoftHeartedFool
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November 3rd, 2018
...See more Broke up with my gf yesterday. Only dated a couple months but I really did fall in love with her. At the time, I thought she did too. A month in and she tells me she loves me. I fall in love fast but I never tell them unless much time has passed and don't want to scare a girl away. This one was different. Too bad it was all a lie and I paid for my foolishness. A month in found out she cheated on me with two other guys. Begs me to take her back. I do. I loved her. I still do. She seemed sincere and I wanted to believe her so badly. Yesterday, found out she was talking to one of the guys she cheated on me with. Confronted her. Told me she can't choose because she knew him since high school. That's new. Asked her why. Told her in the beginning to let me go if she can't be faithful. Tell me you can't commit. Don't drag my heart through the shredder. Twice. She said she can't give me up either. She told me about people who abused her in many different ways. So much pain I know she's in. So I ask her again, why? If you've been hurt so much by others and you tell me I'm the first guy to not treat you like a whore, then why? She knew how much I loved her. How much of my pride and dignity I swallowed because I loved who I thought she was. She tells me she can't help it. She wants it all. She wants others to change for her but doesn't want to change herself. The selfishness. The cruelty and simplicity of her reasoning. I just miss who I thought she was. God help my dumbass heart.
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