Never been hurt like this before...

@SoftHeartedFool

Hey there, hopefully you are doing well. There's a few things I would like to point out;

Broke up with my gf yesterday. Only dated a couple months but I really did fall in love with her. At the time, I thought she did too. A month in and she tells me she loves me. (This screams unmet needs and projecting a fantasy on you) I fall in love fast but I never tell them unless much time has passed and don't want to scare a girl away. (I can also tell you do something similar, however you aware of this) This one was different.

Too bad it was all a lie and I paid for my foolishness. A month in found out she cheated on me with two other guys. (This communicates she has zero intengrity, has low self esteem and needs this constant to feel loved/attracted by others) Begs me to take her back. I do. I loved her. I still do. She seemed sincere and I wanted to believe her so badly. (I can tell you definetly loved her and wanted to work things out, its just a shame she is like this)

Yesterday, found out she was talking to one of the guys she cheated on me with.(Very incosiderate of her) Confronted her. Told me she can't choose because she knew him since high school. (This is a very self-absorbed answer coming from her, she beg you when you were about to leave, but then when she has you is where she starts lining up guys and can't seem to "choose". She is minimizing the situation by saying she "can't choose")That's new.

Asked her why. Told her in the beginning to let me go if she can't be faithful. Tell me you can't commit. Don't drag my heart through the shredder. Twice. (You did great by telling her all of this, it comes a time where enough is enough) She said she can't give me up either. (In other words, she doesn't want to give you up in case it doesn't work out with the other guys, so she looks for other options. She is afraid to be alone, and its also doing all of this to maintain emotional distance from you) She told me about people who abused her in many different ways.(I understand she went through a lot, but it doesn't give her the right to play and toy with people feelings like this. I believe she told you all of this as a way to justify her behavior with you) So much pain I know she's in.

So I ask her again, why? If you've been hurt so much by others and you tell me I'm the first guy to not treat you like a whore, then why? She knew how much I loved her. (Which is the reason she goes back and forth with you, because she knows you will always be there no matter how much she cheats on you) How much of my pride and dignity I swallowed because I loved who I thought she was.(I think you are putting her first in your life, while she is putting you as an option. You should not swallow your pride and dignity for her because she isn't going to respect you and then she will keep cheating on you)

She tells me she can't help it. (In other words, she is basically giving you a lame reason for behavior which is "I can't help it". She can do something about it, she just doesn't see this relationship rewarding enough for her to change which has nothing to do with you) She wants it all. (She is selfish and self-centered) She wants others to change for her but doesn't want to change herself. (This is because she starts to pick on other people flaws, blaming others while feelings they are the problem and not her) The selfishness. The cruelty and simplicity of her reasoning. (It's very selfish, she will always hurt you and comeback to you when the other guys blow her off. You should really think about the kind of women you would like in your life and if she fits that criteria)

I just miss who I thought she was. (I think what she showed you at the beginning was a mask, and now you see how she truly is) God help my dumbass heart. (Don't be hard on yourself, its normal to feel angry, sad, hurt and upset about this girl because you loved her and felt a special connection for her)