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SpaceheadV
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PathStep 24 Compassion hearts30 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes11 Current upvotes11 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2025 Member sinceJune 24, 2019
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Childhood Trauma Memories
General Support / by SpaceheadV
Last post
 November 21st, 2025
...See more I’m 30 years old and lately old childhood memories have come back. I absolutely hate it because it really shows how I had to put these memories in the back of my mind to try and forget. All of the lies and secrets my family tells ruined everything! It’s sad that I thought about unaliving myself so many times as a kid, how many times I wanted to run away, the way I didn’t care about life… no kid should ever feel that way. I hope this part of life goes by fast because when these memories come up it makes me depressed and I really hate it. I’m already an introvert, no friends, no close bonds with anyone not even with siblings so I don’t talk, I stay to myself and out the way.
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The Crush 😻
Relationship Stress / by SpaceheadV
Last post
 September 14th, 2025
...See more Back in 2023 I started working as a security guard at a Ele/Middle school. There was this second grade teacher that I had the biggest crush on, my brain would stop, I’m stuck just staring, my mouth got dry, and my ears always went deaf whenever she was around. I couldn’t not talk to her unless it was school related, I knew it wasn’t healthy for me to feel so deeply for her due to battling with my mental, so I distracted myself by talking to others when she was around just to shake off the nerves. There was a lunch lady who liked me she was cool but not the one. I later found out that my crush also liked me but since I wasn’t ready to pursue her I lost her. We follow each other on *** but doesn’t say anything to each other, besides I like *** more, but at the end of the day she still lives rent free in my head being the last woman I thought of marrying 😅. I wonder if she ever thinks of me 😌
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Smoking is my Habit
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by SpaceheadV
Last post
 September 13th, 2025
...See more I can live without drinking but smoking marijuana has became apart of my daily routine. I can’t sleep without smoking or I will have weird dreams/nightmares, I don’t have an appetite unless I smoke before and after, and just because I’m chilling at home I roll up. At this point I’m actually bored with it because it’s not about the high or goofy stuff anymore it’s just a bad habit that funks up your clothes and mind. Working on making necessary changes in my life. Wish me luck 💝.
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My Mental Journey
Anxiety Support / by SpaceheadV
Last post
 September 14th, 2025
...See more I started my healing March 2022, due years of mental and verbal abuse from family, failed friendships and relationships. This journey has taught me so much about myself and others. We all have a past that doesn’t mean we’re not capable of changing for the better. My mental health started getting worse after my last relationship ended in 2020, I got involved with a “situationship” in July 2021-Fed 22 and they still played in my face. After that my dating life came to an end and I decided to take a vow of abstinence. I became depressed, I lost my job, and now I’m more introverted than I have ever been. Today in 2025 I have been getting better with my mental health but still have some challenges. Lately it’s been just panic attacks causing my heart rate to go up, keeping me from enjoying the little things. I was told to seek therapy but I can’t afford it, so now I’m here. Please just talk to me, check in just to say hey, I love hugs you can send the emoji hug and I would love it. I just can’t be alone with my thoughts anymore just need someone to talk to.
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My Journey
General Support / by SpaceheadV
Last post
 September 14th, 2025
...See more I started my healing March 2022, due years of mental and verbal abuse from family, failed friendships and relationships. This journey has taught me so much about myself and others. We all have a past that doesn’t mean we’re not capable of changing for the better. My mental health started getting worse after my last relationship ended in 2020, I got involved with a “situationship” in July 2021-Fed 22 and they still played in my face. After that my dating life came to an end and I decided to take a vow of abstinence. I became depressed, I lost my job, and now I’m more introverted than I have ever been. Today in 2025 I have been getting better with my mental health but still have some challenges. Lately it’s been just panic attacks causing my heart rate to go up, keeping me from enjoying the little things. I was told to seek therapy but I can’t afford it, so now I’m here. Please just talk to me, check in just to say hey, I love hugs you can send the emoji hug and I would love it. I just can’t be alone with my thoughts anymore just need someone to talk to.
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