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SpeDuck77
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Fake friends
Depression Support / by SpeDuck77
Last post
 February 3rd
...See more I have a FACS class I go to for school, and last week they were talking about friends. The teacher asked everyone to share a time when someone was there for them, and honestly, it hurt every time someone shared their experience, because I knew I would never experience that. The discussion moved on to ‘who do you know has your back and will stand up for you?’ None of my friends have ever stood up for me. They’re the ones bullying me in the first place. intrusive thoughts started coming and now life’s gotten worse, which is why I’m here. Today I walked with my friend Chris to get his school lunch and when we came back, my backpack was unzipped with my binders and books falling out, my lunch was eaten, and my 2 other friends had my Spanish homework and were copying off it. So yeah now it’s almost midnight and I haven’t eaten in almost 30 hours.
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Late Night Thoughts?
Depression Support / by SpeDuck77
Last post
 February 4th
...See more I just remembered something. I’m not sure what my age was at this time, somewhere between 8-12, I remember just sitting in my room during the day or night, with the lights on and door wide open, hoping that someone would walk by and see me breaking, because I couldn’t get myself to ask for help. And everytime I did this, I either sat there for a whole hour and then gave up, or my mom or dad would walk past and notice the light was on, but because there was no noise coming from my room they didn’t even look in. They would just stick their hand in the doorway and hit the lightswitch to turn the lights off, leaving me in the dark. Sometimes, just as they went to turn the lights off, I would announce my presence and say ‘hey’ or something like that, but they still didn’t notice, and they’d turn off the lights. I always got left alone, no acknowledge, left in the dark, alone with my thoughts. They only reason I remembered all that was because I just did the same thing tonight, just to see. And guess what? I’ve never been so afraid of the dark before.
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Anyone get so triggered over the simplest things?
ADHD Support / by SpeDuck77
Last post
 February 3rd
...See more my friend got freakin pisse dat me bc I didn’t want to call the cops on a bunch of kids my age who were parked in their golf carts in my front yard bc there was a misunderstanding and somehow abt 15 kids were told to meet at my home and no one knew why and I had never even met any of the kids in my life, but also I asked what they were doing they said there was a whole war going on between them and a whole another group of kids and they were strategizing how many eggs they needed to attack them with. Anywho after I cleared everything up with them and found out wha was going on, my friend said I should call the cops because they were trespassing and plotting to attack each other, I told her no and then she yelled at me and said I was just too scared to do anything. I told her they apologized so I had no reason to do that, and she just stormed off.me and my other friends headed back to one of their houses, and low and behold pissy girl was waiting outside the front door. Oand after a bit I had to leave so 2 of my friends hug me goodbye, which just leaves the pissy girl with no hug, so i swallowed my frustration, walked up to her, and for the first time in my life, offered someone a hug. This *** shrugs me off and says, I quote, “don’t touch me. I love you but do not even touch me.’ She hasn’t looked me in the eye or talked to me since I told her I wasn’t gonna call the cops. I didn’t and still don’t understand why she’s so oissed abt it. But it hurt to get turned down from a hug when I’ve never even offered one to anyone before. I just didn’t want her to be singled out so there wouldn’t be any drama that could ruin our friendship group. I just need advice for what to do 😔
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