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...See more Ive been through *** and back and im running out of rope. I was abused all through school. My mother was mentslly and physically abusive to me and my dad was a non existant drug addict. Ive been racialy prosecuted for being the only white kid in the getto in middle school. As well as in elemetry school for being fat. Even had a dead name touch and ppl would just run away from me. Ive self harmed since i was 7yo and only stopped about 3 years ago, and ehile i dont have urges to hurt my self, suicide is extrwmly loud any timw my life gets even a little bumpy. Ive been tramitized by like all my exs, the latest leaving me for their uncle. Only thing that has even kept me alive at this point is skateboarding. I started about 10 months ago, and about 7 months ago on new years i started skating across the country because of what happened with my ex and my family acting like i was a burden. So i skated 4k miles over tn, ky, oh, in, mi, il, and tx. When i gat to txs about 2 months back i had lost 30-40lbs, the skinnest ive ever been. The whole time ive just been living on good will and soup kitchens. After being stuck in odessa for 2 weeks and just giving up, i decided id go "home" because a friend ogfered me a room. I finially make it here thabks to a trucker, and my friend dosent just tell me no. No they just avoid the question entirley and tell me they are to busy with their adultry to deal with me right now. So now im starved, im weak, im tired, im alone, i have no support, and no one to lean on. The urges are getting hard to ignore and i jist want someone to see me and twll mw it will be ok, even if it wont be. I just need some hope, please..

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