Tired, homeless, no support
Ive been through *** and back and im running out of rope. I was abused all through school. My mother was mentslly and physically abusive to me and my dad was a non existant drug addict. Ive been racialy prosecuted for being the only white kid in the getto in middle school. As well as in elemetry school for being fat. Even had a dead name touch and ppl would just run away from me. Ive self harmed since i was 7yo and only stopped about 3 years ago, and ehile i dont have urges to hurt my self, suicide is extrwmly loud any timw my life gets even a little bumpy. Ive been tramitized by like all my exs, the latest leaving me for their uncle. Only thing that has even kept me alive at this point is skateboarding. I started about 10 months ago, and about 7 months ago on new years i started skating across the country because of what happened with my ex and my family acting like i was a burden. So i skated 4k miles over tn, ky, oh, in, mi, il, and tx. When i gat to txs about 2 months back i had lost 30-40lbs, the skinnest ive ever been. The whole time ive just been living on good will and soup kitchens. After being stuck in odessa for 2 weeks and just giving up, i decided id go "home" because a friend ogfered me a room. I finially make it here thabks to a trucker, and my friend dosent just tell me no. No they just avoid the question entirley and tell me they are to busy with their adultry to deal with me right now. So now im starved, im weak, im tired, im alone, i have no support, and no one to lean on. The urges are getting hard to ignore and i jist want someone to see me and twll mw it will be ok, even if it wont be. I just need some hope, please..
🫂 virtual hugs if ok
I believe there is hope. You might have lost lots of weight but it sounds you still have enough health in your body. What you pulled yourself through sounds like a difficult experience. You survived this much already. It sounds like you might have a voice in your head telling you that you are not worth more. This voice might use the situations from your life as evidence. But it’s not objective. It might not be easy to get yourself back. But you can choose to. And you can keep going until you do. You already proved you can keep going literally. You can do the same with your life new destination.
What kind of life would you want in 5 years?
Which state you would live in? Friends? A job? A business? Renting a room or apartment or a house? Having a dog? Hobby?
@Starry18
@Starry18 I'm sorry all that's happened 💙 honestly you're a lot stronger than you think, that's a hard storm to whether and you're still coming out on top
I think it'll be okay 💙