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I need to tell someone this.
Addiction Support / by StomachInKnots
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 October 19th
...See more I am a 46 year old man who (I am pretty sure) has been dealing with an escalating sex addiction for the majority of his life. I remember having sexualised thoughts very early on in life (maybe from 5-6 years old?) and my first quasi-sexual experience was at around the age of 8 with someone of the same age. It was a bit doctors and nurses but a little further than I expect most of these things go. Throughout my childhood and into my teens I masturbated very regularly and when even though I got a girlfriend when I was 17, I actually lost my virginity to a prostitute before I had sex with my girlfriend. I have basically never been single since that girlfriend, and have always engaged in cheating with non sex-workers as well as sex workers for my entire adult life. I actually got into a relationship/affair with one of them which ended up costing me hundreds of thousands and nearly ending my marriage. 6 years on from that discovery and I have continued to use sex workers and my behaviours around that have become increasingly risky. I'd prefer not to go into detail around that but it is safe to say that this is becoming a serious problem. When the urge comes on it is absolutely compulsive. I need to deal with this without involving my wife or family because I simply could not live with the shame of putting them through all of that again. I don't know what else to say for now... I just hope I can get myself sorted out. 
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