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Synnder
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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts32 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes6 Current upvotes6 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2022 Member sinceMay 28, 2020
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Relationship Stress / by Synnder
Last post
 March 29th, 2022
...See more Having eyes and heart for only one woman can be the greatest feeling in the world, pure euphoria. Only hitch is, I’m already unhappily married to someone else. Timing is a bitch.
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Rushing my life forward was a mistake.
Relationship Stress / by Synnder
Last post
 April 16th, 2022
...See more 8 years ago I met my wife, we were both in a bad place emotionally and bonded over our previous relationships. Over time I felt it was just easier and better to stay together. I’ve never felt happiness so if I can atleast make her happy things are worth it right? Cut years into the future I’m still content being with her, not really anything bad happening, but I don’t feel happy. I don’t feel like I can be truly alive, stifled etc. we’ve made increasingly larger steps in hopes things get better, moved into an apartment, then got married 2.5 years ago then bought a house 6 months ago. None of these steps have made me happier and I was content on just staying meh. recently however I’ve been self reflecting, changed some habits, getting into shape and losing weight, trying to really work on me, and in hanging out with friends I’ve realized I really can have a good time when I’m with the right people, I just can’t with my wife. It’s so hard to admit that I’ve had these feelings for years but wasn’t able to say it out loud. I told her I want a divorce last week and everyone is saying it’s so soon and a hasty decision, but I’ve been struggling with it since before even the wedding. I wish I was strong enough to say it then. i don’t want to destroy her heart though, it’s hard to convey I’ve had these feelings for years without her assuming I never loved her, just that love alone isn’t enough. I really think I need this change, but it is going to derail my life entirely now just to try and move forward. I just want to break things off before kids are in the picture, if I’m not happy now it’s not a risk I think I should move forward with.
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