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I'm struggling to focus on my thesis that I started 5 yrs ago... I get this nausea as I just open the file. I tried many things like staying awake at night when nobody can distract me, I just started going for short hikes around my neighbourhood to refresh my brain. I'm part of a dancing class where I interact with people, I'm an active member of an international group, I go to theatre or events in general... I interact with the local community. I have set smaller tasks as many sites suggest... but nothing seems to really work... I feel like my energy is taken away by every small or big event like if I have to cook or listen to my parents disfunctional discussions just for a few seconds and even when these things don't happen I still feel this depress feeling that won't let me get started. All I seem to do is day-dream that it all has ended and that my ideal fantasy life in my head will always be better than my actual life.
I should get a partner to do the thesis with...someone that I must feel accountoble to but that is not an option, I've finished my uni courses such a long-time ago that I lost touch with any other students and none of the people I know have the time to dedicate time to such a task of daily support. I wish to find an online community with someone on the same boat that will benefit from a mutual words of support in the progress of surpossing this obstacle. I seem to think that my 35 yrs are too late to start a carrier and a family with a child when I haven't even managed to finish my studies.