I want to finish the 5 weeks in celebration

I'm writing here to commit to my goal to start working at my desk for at least 6 hours for day 5/7 to get done the paperwork that needs to be done for various things both project and general bureaucratic papers even if I don't see a reward in the future like the opportunity to have my house, my space, my family bc of the current economical situation and the fact I'm a woman with a clock ticking inside of me where a child is hard to have by the year that possesses. Still there's no point in doing anything out of Fear, this is why we are here in the first place with all these issues is bc people have fear to change things or see fear where there isn't. I don't want to be like them even if my fear or lack of motivation can be justified. So many others in way worse situations in the past have managed to make it through bc as Madiba said "work with hope, not fear". 

Starting from now by finalizing and printing the paper to bring tomorrow to report the Plumber as many other works that I'll find in my job as an architect or an engineers who will constantly try to cheat me, confuse me, gaslight me, diminish me...but I won't let it get to me.