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...See more I'm an 18 year old girl who has minimal experience with relationships. My few relationships consisted of toxicity and being one sided. Yesterday my long-distance ex who I'll call G, blocked my number, blocked me on all social media, and told me flat out that they never wanted to see me again. From the beginning, the relationship had been toxic and I ignored the signs because I wanted to show G I was dedicated and loved them for them. The good and bad parts. I let myself be called hurtful words. I let myself be gaslighted. I let myself be screamed at. I let myself actually BEG to be loved by my partner. The list of disrespect to myself goes on. Anyway, this isn't what I'm upset over. I finally had it with being mentally and emotionally thrown around so I woke myself up. I realized if it was meant to be it would be. If they really loved me they would empathize with the fact that I'd be torn into pieces by them continously threatening to leave me alone with my thoughts. If my heart was theirs they wouldn't have threatened to throw it away so many times. I had it and I blocked them back on everything. I know that I deserve better. Today they saw, and unblocked me on a chatting app then went ballistic on me. They told me they hated me, they never loved me, and that it was all my fault. I know by their actions that they didnt truly love me but it hurts and I'm holding back tears typing all of this. I gave a lot of myself to this person only to have it stomped on.

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