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...See more I have been in this relationship almost 9 years It was good for the first few years. 2 years in , we found out he had epilepsy. I stuck by him through multiple grand mal seizures, and the multiple shoulder surgeries, as a loving and doting girlfriend. We lived with his parents during this and as he was feeling better we moved out. So almost 4 years in we were living on our own. He got into drugs which caused him more seizures and another surgery. I watched him overdose in front of me. And i stuck by him He has moved from drugs to alcohol. He spends every penny he can on booze. He doesn't work. He doesnt clean. He sits around and plays video games. Or hes out drinking. On my dime His family says hes depressed and I need to understand that by leaving him it's like handing a drowning man a glass of water; meaning they are.literally saying if I leave hes going to harm himself... I love him dearly. He holds a special place in my heart but he is not the same person. He never will be. And this version of him has no respect for me. And doesnt show me he loves me. I love him.. but I am no longer in love with him And I'm no saint... because I'm sad and lost and lonely I have been chatting with my ex. I just dont know how to leave. 9 years is a long time but I cant let it be the reason I stay. We dont have kids together but his sisters kids only know me as auntie... I'm stuck. I dont know what to do and it makes me want to break down..

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