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Xintrix
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Long Gone
Journals & Diaries / by Xintrix
Last post
 June 3rd, 2024
...See more What you meant to destroy me hasn't stopped me. Yes it hurt. Yes it immobilized me for a short time. But.... I still continued. I have been digging myself out of the hole you put me in financially, emotionally, and physically. I survived before I met you, and I will thrive without you. The only person you hurt in the end is you. You lost the one person who thought the world of you. Look at you, still struggling and lost. Your in the same place you were before we met. The day will come when you realize what you had and regret the way you lost me.  When that day comes, I won't be around for you anymore. You thought you could do this on your own and couldn't appreciate what you had. There are no more chances.
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Dating and Breakup with a narcissist
Journals & Diaries / by Xintrix
Last post
 May 31st, 2024
...See more You came into my life promising so many enticing things. You told me that you loved me and wanted to spend a lifetime with me. Meanwhile you threw dirt my way, slowly and steady. So slow in fact that I couldn't tell that you were burying me alive. Sometimes you would sit with me in the dirt and convince me that I wasn't alone. Telling me you had my back and that everything was ok so I didn't notice it accumulating around my body. Before I knew it I was covered and immobile. You told me you would find a way to save me, that you would come back and help.  Deeper still it got until eventually the weight beneath me collapsed and I was trapped in a hollowed out shell beneath the earth. It was dark, lonely and scary. For some time I stayed there trembling and unable to move. The only solice I had was your voice that would reach me from time to time in the darkness just when I thought I would go crazy. Soon that voice would come back less and less. It kept telling me to stay put and wait for his help. So I kept waiting...and waiting. Eventually I found the inner strength to dig forward inch by inch. Some days I halted unable to see or feel a path. The dirt piled around me and it seemed impossible to move. As I continued the inches gave to feet and I could finally feel a subtle hint of air and light in the chasm. I could still hear your voice reach me from time to time with empty promises of help.  Everyday I pushed forward until one day the dirt gave way into a massive cave of darkness. There were days I was scared, I couldn't make out much in the darkness. But other time I could feel a draft beckoning me forward. With uneasy footing I continued. Until air and darkness finally turned into glimpses of light somewhere in the distance. I began to see a path forward although not all that clear. So I continue little by little without you. Everyday gaining a little more strength and resolve. My path still unclear but steadier by the day.
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Remember not to settle. Let's go to war.
Journals & Diaries / by Xintrix
Last post
 May 25th, 2024
...See more I heard a saying a few months ago that really struck a chord within me. Basically they said that when choosing a partner, choose someone you could go to war with. I've spent a lot of time in my life fighting for deserters and people who would never fight for me. I give people chance after chance with little regard for my own self. In the end I always find myself drained, hurt and forgetting who I am. I deserve to be chosen everyday. I deserve someone I can fight my battles with. I deserve someone who will fight for me just as hard as I fight for them. If that realization ain't powerful... I'm not sure what is. It's time to remember who I am, and what I'm freakin worth! Not gunna lie... this last breakup I had nearly destroyed me. Yes it still hurts, yes I am still struggling.... but I'm going to take it one step at a time. One day at a time.
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