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YellowTub
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Addiction Support / by YellowTub
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 June 26th, 2020
...See more I'm not one for build ups so I'll just get straight into it. When I was 5, I became addicted to pornography. I had snuck into an older sibling's room and found a portable DVD player, which had contained a pornographic film at the time. As soon as I'd opened the player, the screen projected naked bodies. I shut it immediately. Some things...you just know is forbidden automatically 😂. I knew that I shouldn't have looked, especially since I wasn't supposed to be in the room, but a child's curiosity is so compelling. I resumed the film and watched until I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. After that, I just couldn't stop. I would search the house up and down looking for naughty films. That ended when I discovered that films that didn't appear to be naughty were as well. I indulged into a long journey of finding sex scenes of any sort in movies I could watch out in the open. When I moved into a room of my own, I discovered Max After Dark and it was over with. I couldn't wait until night. I'd sleep all day just to make sure I had energy enough to stay up. I was a child when MTV's 16 and Pregnant premiered. I remembered telling myself that I'd never let that happen. So I shoved everything explicit in a box. Told my friends not to speak sexually around me, didn't date at all and have yet to be in a relationship, and I refused masturbation especially. Find Pt.2 To Continue
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