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Feeling embarrassed that I have no teenage milestones.

General Support / by Yurnuthere

June 10th, 2025

...See more I feel embarrassed that I'm graduating high school in a few weeks, turning 19 in October and never had a boyfriend/girlfriend, never been someone's Valentine, never had my first kiss, never had a friend group, never been invited to a party, never been to a sleepover, etc. Everyone else either had friends whenever the group was big, small or just 2-3 people, had many things to gossip about, hung out after school, went to parties, hung out on the weekends, talked to each other at lunch, had sleepovers, etc. The people in relationships were all lovey dovey in school, went on dates, etc while I was sitting alone 24/7 and wasting away being in the house all day and when I went out it was mostly with my mom or dad, it's like everyone knew I was out with my parents. It feels like everyone also knew I didn't have friends and avoided me. The people who did talk to me was because they had to ð¥² not because they wanted to. My high school was one big social setting (every single high school is tbh) but I had no friends to socialize with. I was just wasting away while listening to kpop, scrolling through Twitter, watching YouTubes and tiktoks, doing work, etc. I feel like people lie when they say most people don't get into friendships or relationships in high school just to make people like me feel better because they know that we feel lonely and have no other way of offering advice. Even if it's true that most people don't date in high school, they still have friends to hang out with in and outside of school, so that doesn't make me feel better in any way. College probably ain't gonna be better so I think I'm stuck in the lone wolf zone. I go to a black Latino school and my dad said that the guys probably don't approach me cause they see me as a challenge but really I think it's because the boys problem prefer thin girls or girls who wear those long wigs and long nails. I'm more on the curvy side and I look stocky so that's already a huge no. Plus, the girls all have a certain look with their face shapes and I don't have that face shape so that's a double no (it's mainly the black girls with this type of look that get the boys). The only girls with no wigs, no long nails, no lashes that I see boys go for are the Latinas (I keep seeing this couple of a tall black boy with dreads and a short thin latina) since I already know that black guys love Latinas. One time a guy asked another guy if he prefers curvy girls or skinny girls and he said skinny girls (he was a chubby kid with glasses) and that made me feel even worse about myself. Two guys also called me ugly before so I tried to take my glasses off and do my hair (I have 3c hair) but nothing changed, they still called me ugly. I tried to put myself out there and be part of large friend groups or just sit at tables with a bunch of people but there was always someone that asked me to sit somewhere else (usually somewhere alone). It feels like no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I'll never be as good or as pretty as the other girls around me. I'll always stick out in a bad way, and I'll never be truly accepted by others.

**** public schools