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Unsure how to move forward with my life
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 July 13th, 2024
...See more I’m a professional musician. I’m very lucky. I get to play drums full time for a band. But I live across the country from my family. Mom dad, siblings, everyone. My girlfriend’s family is all there too. We have a home and three dogs I love. My schedule is dictated by this band and I never really know except several days prior to the month starting. I don’t go home much. But I make a living. my girlfriend goes home a lot to help her mom run a business. Sometimes months at a time. She really doesn’t like where we live except that I’m there. I have bipolar and have caused issue in our relationship. I’m scared my parents or others will get sick or die and my inaction will cause me to never see them. Going from seeing them constantly to maybe a handful more times in life is scary. I do a solo act that is now successful and I could do that and dictate my time better. But it might mean giving up drumming most of the time to do my one man band. Im really stuck. Because I worry so much about everything. Even though I don’t have to. But I want to be able to go home. I also feel like the band for the bandleader has become more of a hobby type deal and I want it to be more serious. And also my issue is I worry about putting so much issue towards something that isn’t mine. im hoping to get some people to give me advice. 5 years ago when i was 25-26 i dropped everything to do this. Now I feel like it doesn’t matter so much anymore. Like it’s just wasting time and I could be spending more time with family. I’m worried I’m making bad decisions. I don’t know.
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