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affectionateOwl6599
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Depression and just having a hard time trusting people
Depression Support / by affectionateOwl6599
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 September 9th, 2015
...See more Hi I have been depressed since I was 11 and am now 22yrs old. I find it so hard to talk to people about this as I just find that most people I meet don't get it and just think im having a off day and ill be back smiling tomorrow. I pushed all my friends away when I went through a serious stage of depression about 4 years ago and so I dont have many left to speak to and those who I do live around 2 hours away. Recently I moved back to my home town and have nobody to talk with apart from family members. I feel like everyone just looks at me and feels too nervous to talk to me down here. I also recently met a guy who I really like but as im moving back up to london soon for uni he has started pulling away and although he says he will miss me etc he has made it clear to me that he cant do long distance - even though we have never specified what we are. At the moment we are just friends who spend a lot of time together...we do the PG13 stuff of hugging kissing but have only slept with one another once. I want to talk to him about this stuff but in my head I dont have the balls to do it... I want to tell him I like him more than what we are but i think he will just run off as I'm being to needy or something :/
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New relationship from an abusive one
Trauma Support / by affectionateOwl6599
Last post
 September 14th, 2015
...See more Hi there, I have been in a mentally and physically abusive relationship for 2 years now and before that I was sexually abused from the age of 5 by a cousin and again from the ages of 11-13 by a group of boys I went to school with and a teacher who would watch. Im from a family who is your typically upper class lot who wont talk about problems and so im pretty lost. I got into what I thought was a loving relationship which turned abusive with him pinning me down and using a blade to cut my arms, knocking me out and using my own mind against me...i got out of it in Feb but am hadn't met anyone until now. I met a guy I used to go to college with and we got along instantly...we have spent the past month together going out, having nights in and even my friends have commented on how I have been smiling over a guy again. However we had sex for the first time a few nights ago and afterwards I panicked, I got up got dressed and left... I dont know why I did it and I am worried I have lost any hope with this guy- any advice would be great :) x
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