Depression and just having a hard time trusting people
Hi I have been depressed since I was 11 and am now 22yrs old. I find it so hard to talk to people about this as I just find that most people I meet don't get it and just think im having a off day and ill be back smiling tomorrow. I pushed all my friends away when I went through a serious stage of depression about 4 years ago and so I dont have many left to speak to and those who I do live around 2 hours away. Recently I moved back to my home town and have nobody to talk with apart from family members. I feel like everyone just looks at me and feels too nervous to talk to me down here. I also recently met a guy who I really like but as im moving back up to london soon for uni he has started pulling away and although he says he will miss me etc he has made it clear to me that he cant do long distance - even though we have never specified what we are. At the moment we are just friends who spend a lot of time together...we do the PG13 stuff of hugging kissing but have only slept with one another once. I want to talk to him about this stuff but in my head I dont have the balls to do it... I want to tell him I like him more than what we are but i think he will just run off as I'm being to needy or something :/
Hi there,
Thanks for sharing. I'm so sorry you have been struggling with this for so long. My first question is, are you getting help? If not, i recommend a visit to your GP. They don't offer just pills. They can offer therapy and suggest places for you to attend to either socialise with others or just talk.
As for the guy stuff...I'm not too sure what to say that will help you. Some part of me can understand why he would pull away if you're moving. It might be that he really likes you too, but if you're moving then he doesn't want the pain of letting you go. If you can and he is willing, have a honest chat.
Hey thankyou for your reply :) yes I am on pills and have been for a long time, my therapist is suggesting that i am ready to come off of them so we will see, I completely trust him and hope it will work.. as for the guy situation its a bit of an awkward one as my university is only an hour away but in your opinion do you think it is worth talking to him and seeing what he wants ?