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screen time before bed
Addiction Support / by ambitiousSpruce6173
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 May 10th, 2018
...See more I have been trying to get my internet addiction under control. I'd like to get to the point where I don't check anything online to start with, a half hour before bed. However, I still have this need to check facebook, instagram, and youtube before I sleep. And I need to have a video playing in order for me to sleep. I want to do this because I wake up lots throughout the night and i think thats the cause because thats what I mindlessly do as soon as I wake up. Any suggestions on how to do this?
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Addiction Support / by ambitiousSpruce6173
Last post
 June 20th, 2018
...See more I grew up in a small town in Saskatchewan, Canada. I have a learning disability so I found it hard to make new friends. Plus i liked stuff that was totally not popular. I was maybe 13 or 14 when I discovered the wonders of the internet. I began emailing random people. I'd collect email addresses from chat rooms. Then I started emailing musicians, a lot. I was warned that I was going to cross the wrong person one day, but I didn't believe it. My parents took the internet out of the house because I wasn't even getting school work done, I was on so much. My internet access at school even got blocked several times because I was on it so much. When I became an adult and moved out of my parents house, I got internet. My life got so out of control, but I didn't admit it. About four years ago, I began attending concerts/shows on the local music scene in a nearby city. I began messaging those people too. I did cross the wrong person who didn't like me messaging him, or the amount I was messaging others on facebook. Eventually, he blocked me on facebook. The next time we crossed paths, he sat me down and gave me a heart to heart. He was so concerned about what I was doing. I had made a fake email account and impersonated my support worker. He caught me and cut me off. A few months later, he found out I was still constantly messaging people so he had me banned from an establishment I found out later he worked at (I tried recently to get unbanned, but the current manager sees me as a threat so I gave up). I realized when I got banned that I hit rock bottom. I realized that my life wasn't that great. I spent grades 7-10 in detention and barely passed my classes enough to graduate because I spent so much time online. I spent time in detention because I never got my homework done. I lost several potentional friendships because of my addiction. In the three years that followed, I did get help. I saw several councelors. I'm now in a mental health support group in my town. I took up the guitar and writing. The individual who I had the falling out with will say hi to me now when we cross paths. He told me that I can attend his shows if I don't play on my phone all night instead of being present. With that being said, I still feel the shadow creep up. I have relapsed a few times. However, I have great people in my life now who are willing to give me a good shake when I do relapse. My parents said they know when ive relapsed cuz my self care and my house start getting neglected.
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Shopping addiction/wanting more stuff i don't need..
Addiction Support / by ambitiousSpruce6173
Last post
 March 25th, 2018
...See more I get my apartment clean and organized and get rid of everything I don't need. Then I go buy stuff I don't need and start from square one.
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