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How do you defeat depression alone?
Depression Support / by ambitiousStrawberries5690
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 April 19th, 2017
...See more Hi I'm Kaitlyn. I've been depressed for 8 years now, when I was 11, I was so low and depressed, leading in self harm and suicide was a frequent thing on my mind. This is where my family and I did reach for help. So I was seeing social workers and therapist's nearly everyday. Things got better for a whlie after that, when I was about 15, I decided to cancel all my contacts cause I thought my life was looking up and I felt genuinely better, apart from the occasional spur. Then things spiraled out of control again, I didn't wanna wake up in the morning, I didn't wanna eat, and had trouble sleeping every night and just sleep all day. Or want to, I'd never get the chance cause I have such a loud family, who never seem to sleep normal people's hours When I was 16/17/18, I found comfort in a boy, called Kenny. I loved being insomnia'd because I knew at the end of the week, I'd sleep perfectly with him. I was never so in love for anyone in my life. Yes I am young, and people would say "you don't know what love is dear". I found love and they were the most happiest times, when I'd be with him. I fucked up a lot during me and his relationship, I cheated and lied to him, cause of my own foolishness. Which I would never forgive myself for. We were on and off for 1 year and 9 months! I found so much confort in him, it felt like my whole 6 years of sadness was gone just in one hug hello. After a year and a couple months, we got engaged. It was supposed to be one of the happiest days a girl could have, and it was. But it didn't last long, we were always the arguing type but it got worse, to the point he had to phone the police on me twice, just to get me to leave. I didn't wanna leave the comfort, the happiness he used to flawlessly give me. Near the end, I was depressed. Suicide riddled through my head because I felt worthless. But now I'm here alone and don't really know how to do with it anymore, I seek in family, but they never seem to care or understand. Or help! I lI've with them again and they argue 24/7 and kids run about crazy all the time and I'm crying at least 7 times a day because I'm just so down with where I am. So does anyone know how to deal with depression by yourself?
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