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What does the future hold
Relationship Stress / by amicableMaple2114
Last post
 August 26th, 2019
...See more We met on the track team back in high school. I didnt know it at the time but I had just met a person that would change my life forever. The timing was never right for us. I was always single but you were in a relationship. Then you became single and I was in a relationship. Once I was dumped I turned to you for support and the next day would change my life. It was all falling into place finally. We were together. We eventually were in love. We had plans for a future but then we broke up the first time because of my own doing. We got back together shortly afterwards and it went good but I guess all good things come to an end. 9 months after we got back together, I broke up with you. Once again as it seemed the timing wasnt right. I was not ready for a full commitment and I needed to find myself more. Breaking up with you was the hardest thing I have ever done. Knowing that this waa someone you wantes to spend your while life with but knowing that now was not the time or the place. I tried to get you back for no reason but my own ego and wanting to give you everything I promised. I acted as a child and didnt do well. You were my first true love and I couldnt let you go even though I knew I had too. I said some mean things, I wasnt letting you be happy. Now you're talking with a guy again like the first tome we broke up and it hurts so much. I hope he's good for you, I hope he's the one but I am here hurt from my decision. I dont know what the future holds, the timing was never right.
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Breakups suck
Relationship Stress / by amicableMaple2114
Last post
 July 3rd, 2019
...See more So about a month ago I broke up with my girlfriend for the second time. I didnt see a future anymore and in hindsight through this last month I have realized that our relationship wasnt as great as it shouldve been. Now I made so many promises of marriage to her and a wonderful future so breaking up was the hardest thing that I had to do and I fell into a deep depression. I knew it was the right decision but I still was just hard on myself. Not to mention I found out a few days after the break up she started talking to a guy again who she had talked to the first time we broke up and she liked him. He is in the military and they have actually never met in person. I was devestated that she could move on that fast. I am happy for her I mean I cant be mad because I was the one who broke up with her but I feel just like completely worthless. I wasnt enough for her and she found someone who did I guess. I also found out she had been thinking about him during the 2nd part of our relationship and that she new all the problems of our relationship and never communicated with me so she was pretry much ready to move on. I was hurt and said some bad things to her which I have apologized. I have apologized for everything. I did not have a backup plan, I did not want to break up but it had to happen. I was not ready to commit. I dont want anyone else tho, I dont want a relationship. I just want to focus on myself but I havent been happy and I just want to move on and be happy like her
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