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Overthinking
Friendship Support / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 December 23rd, 2025
...See more Hello ,, idk how to start but basically I have been facing alot of problems which is developing into many issues, for start ,, my year started with the girl I was dating , sleeping in front of me with another guy, not her mistake here , we weren't in a relationship but still left a mental scar on me for the rest of the year ,, I had difficulties trusting women in general after this incident, I'm sorry if I'm sounding wrong or offensive to anyone ,, i slowky found myself drifting away from people in general although I live , spend time with my friends it's always I'm feeling lonely now , I started working on me , my body , transformation began , i locked in, that when I started talking to a random girl online ,, i was not looking for any relationship but just someone to talk regardless of gender ,, i spent 3 months, alone all by myself, just doing gym, barely meeting any frnds in 10-15days ,, while talked with this girl almost regularly ,,, i did well in gym, significant process, she became.part of it,, later after 6-7 months i kind of started getting attracted to her ,, her personality, we both ,, later in soan of 2.months developed hard feelings and was abt to confess but one days she comes telling me how she's in relationship with her crush of 2 yrs now and she's happy, ,, i broke down, but i knew i could not carry this with me , so I too told her everything and confessed,, tho she asked me to.remain friends and not to.fade away or stop talking her now , and i too value our frndship mor.etham my feelings,, this all happened on 1st dec ,, fast forward today ,, i believe I moved on from her , but whenever she texts me or I text her ,, one thought come sin my mind constantly, is " you have a bf now go talk to him,, not me "" because I'm getting flashbacks of what i used to feel for her,, this is hurting me , keeps me awake thinking what's going on , idk why it's bothering me so much ,, im having worse year of my life since January 2025 ,, that sleeping incident, one of my close frnd/sister leaving me breaking frndship,, difficulties in my career, family problems , and now this right at the end ,,, idk what I'll do I was feeling to end this all right at the new years eve but I won't , I wanna heal and improve ,, I have fell into overthinking and loneliness, idk what to do
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Social anxiety
Anxiety Support / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 July 30th, 2024
...See more 3 days ago there was an field visit of my class , I only attended this class bc it's my minor/optional subject, but I loved it always and when I got to know abt this visit I decided I'm going , but my friends which also had this class as minor class were not coming due to their respective reasons ,.so I was left alone with the other students of class , whom I'm friends with actually but not much close , bc it's just twice the week we meet for class , so to next day , at visit, I found myself alone , everyone had their groups , and i didn't, I tried to squeeze myself in , but i couldn't, I was alone all the time , even ate myself alone at the corner , I was so apart I was not in any photos taken , nor i dared to , as for visit, it was good I learnt things , but the part of socialisation made it one of my worst day of my life. I tried hard to interract but i couldn't, my social anxiety is going pretty worse day by day , idk how do I deal with it.
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Confused
Relationship Stress / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 August 5th, 2024
...See more I had a girl who i had a massive crush on for 6-7 months. We used to share same class , after 7-8 months i decided to finally start approaching her , rather than direct approach, i decided to know her well first , so we became friends , had phone numbers , even got in common friends group chats , atp I was crushing hard , I was started understanding her , but one night as I was just going through few common frnds we had. I found a senior guy from her class. And I found she actually was his girlfriend (we both are freshmens in clg while that guy just graduated from clg as our first year came to end). I was devasted but my thought process was , she's perfect one , but not the one for me *** , I moved on that time , it's been 4 months now for that , we both are in same class for our second year ,I see her daily ,but I stopped interracting much ,bc there's nothing to , I don't wanna be in frnd or bro zones. But from some week in past , I've found myself disliking her for some reason, idk why , but randomly I started not liking her , there's no jealousy or anything in between but then why am I hating on someone I have nothing to do with ? Is this common with everyone? Yes I don't have any feelings rn for her , even she gets single , idk i won't even try to hit on her.
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What is love ?
Relationship Stress / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 August 2nd, 2024
...See more What is love , I'm not just talking about relationship or romantic partners , but what is considered as love ? As for me , I've never experienced love myself, nor anyone has loved me till this day, what it is , how do I know I'm in love , or will anyone love me ? Atp I'm genuinely confused
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Day 5,6 and 7 of fixing my Eating Disorder
Eating Disorder Support / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 July 29th, 2024
...See more ( I will try to give daily updates on my diet , but sometimes I get too busy due to clg work is getting on , so in such times I will give updates of multiple days all toghether) Day 5 (26jul) - Unfortunately I got bit sick bc it's rainy season here and monsoon has picked up it's full power , due to my trek I was wet all day , result in coughing and sneezing,.so I had medicinal herbs tea , but diet remained as it is Day 6 (27jul) - I actually ate less today bc i had my lunch so late that I was full till my dinner , but I got a light dinner Day 7 (28jul) - again, my nose is blocked , and I felt feverish today , every Sunday of my week is basically my off diet day , but all I eat on Sundays is rice , along with pulses , grains ,. vegetables , and I make sure not to over eat it , I don't eat rice all along week , I get prepared tiffins for whole week , but Sunday's I make myself , i can cook , but Sundays , I like to chill and relax , so I cook rice and some vegetable , have rest day , and study
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Fixing my Eating Disorder: Day 3 & 4
Eating Disorder Support / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 July 28th, 2024
...See more For.day 3 : I didn't hurt gym ,had.my steps goal done , and diet on track Day 4 : i actually went for a Trek so I ate bit out , but had my excise and cardio done , overall, it's in better condition rather than just aimlessly eating , I kept myself in control avoiding sugar , and other things I'm not to in my diet for cutting
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I don't have a personality
Self-Esteem / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 July 24th, 2024
...See more i believe I don't have personality which is a reason for my low self esteem and depression. I can say it all started from 2020 , I was an extroverted guy , I was in class 10th during 2020 , as lockdown hit , I was suddenly cut off with my frnds from like 9-10 months untill everything started but that's when I realised I was the only one cut off from literally my every single frnd i had that time , they all were in group chats , having fun during that time , it's not like they didn't had my contact, they just didn't included me ,that's when I realised how fake all were they and this was reason my self esteem began to shatter I was forced to be introvert, i couldn't talk with anyone then , not even later in my college, highschool, I was literally spending time talking with online strangers bc i couldn't talk ppl irl , I had trust and attachment issues ever since. Fast forward to 2023 , I moved to another city for my UG degree , I thought I will definitely change here , bc I was preparing a bit, I had started gym a year ago to get in shape , many online frnds supported me that time , , when I joined college, the main thing strike me again , I was not able to talk with anyone, especially with girls. It took me 4 months just to get noticed my a random guy in class to approach me , btw I'm good in studies so I was kinda being used by everyone in my life bc of that , his intention was same but still he talked with me , we became frnds , not just for notes but good frnds , and soon I was in group. But still the main thing was ,I was feeling alone , lonely everytime, I live alone here I don't have any close person, I never had a gf or any much close frnd. I saw many couples around me I was jealous of them bc they are enjoying their lives where I'm struggling myself. I had online relationships , but never irl , I can confidently say I'm good enough to get any girl , but only online , im not confident enough to speak in public Till today , 2024 , I'm still single , I just want to be feel what love is , and only thing that's stopped me is my low self esteem. I'm getting severely depressed because of this. Watching happy ppl toghether, I had several breakdowns since January till today that I must have not cried that much in my entire life , even tried offing my self once but didn't, I have deep jealousy issues too , i get jealous even seeing two ppl fighting , like i want that too. All of this , but one day I just scrolled through a common frnds who kinda rejected me indirectly saying she wanted someone just like me , but not me. I saw her bfs profile , i stalked him , that's when I realised, I don't have a personality, I'm literally nothing. For example, that guy had photography as hobby, was studying computer science, had good looks , was good in talking too , I know i shouldn't compare myself to him but I was jealous for some reason. I don't know what I'm going through, I'm really depressed i just want to talk with someone about it , what is actually a personality ? Do I have anything others would like , tbh the question is do i have anything I like ? Please can anyone relate with or help me ? I'm 20 rn , this all started when I was 16. It's been long time I'm facing all this ***
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Day 2 - Fixing my Eating Disorder
Eating Disorder Support / by amicableZebra1684
Last post
 August 4th, 2024
...See more I would keep it short , i followed my diet thoroughly, had few instances of temptations but when the motivation is hard enough , nothing can beat it Done with my every exercise goals aswell today , inshort everything done successfully today.
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